I aM wAt I am

2012-01-07T19:00:00.000-08:00

feelings are something that hard to describe yet leave a lot of question mark on our
head ?
yet still why do we care about it ?

sometimes its just like choosing a candy out of the jar ~

photoblog~

2011-12-25T04:12:00.000-08:00

this time shall try something new ways of blogging for today to show the recent of me
short yet easy
~~photoblog ~~~=)

presenting on behalf of my group~~

one team tat is truly amazing ~~

happy faces when the presentation is done ~~

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tick tock ~

2011-12-17T05:56:00.000-08:00

everything has almost reach the end ,
the journey of 4 years ~~
sometimes looking at the clock ll make me dont wanna leave here ~~~
wat awaiting in front is still a question mark ~~

can oly say wish to enjoy the present for now, dont wanna plan for the next step yet even i dont pretty much like the feeling of insecure ~
being repeating 伍家辉 - 你爱我吗 and 伍家辉~虽然我愿意 in my winamp list for the past week ~~~
i m kinda loving this 2 song ~~

2011-11-24T04:41:00.000-08:00

willingly to help others in a group assignment and willingly to help it with the heart is one big difference ~

2011-11-04T10:52:00.000-07:00

i just realized i miss u the most when replying a fren via sms
i know i hope the ppl i am replying sms is u ~
miss u ~~undeniable
T____T

2011-10-23T16:10:00.000-07:00

how long can i go on ?
its really a question~~~

3.04 am 5 th oct 11

2011-10-04T11:49:00.000-07:00

accidentally found this song in the song list
been keep on repeating since then ~
my companion in this quite night as i struggling really hard for academic purpose~~~

this part lyric is the fantasy part ~~~

WE WANNA ROCKA, ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA ( so fantastic )
go ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA ( so elastic )

FANTASTIC, FANTASTIC, FANTASTIC ,FANTASTIC, ELASTIC , ELASTIC, ELASTIC , ELASTIC ~~

time turn back ~~~

2011-09-24T12:27:00.000-07:00

my is it always is my fault?
y everything have to go wrong oly tat time ~
where is my darn iq n eq missing when i needed them the most~
i m sincerely hoping ~~
=(

2011-09-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

红颜一笑
by defination ,
smile from someone u like~

did i still saw it just now ?
or just illusion or over thinking ?

from me , to u , abouts us

2011-09-15T21:17:00.001-07:00

From me , To u , About us
from the eyes of the photographer to the view of the audience ~
nevertheless the storyline is all about us , each and everyone around at that particular time , particular moment ~

the philosophy which i set out in each of "alex Photography "
perhaps i may just a beginner in this journey of capturing but i really hope to share it ~
i believe in that particular second, that very moment when that particular is something special , that particular moment should captured down ~
perhaps due to the fact that everything is fragile and nothings last ~
this is where the role of the pic comes in ~~
it makes us remember , it makes us treasure , it makes us feel something inside~

p/s : i wan a dslr baby so badly ~unfortunately i cant afford it right now ~~

2011-09-13T09:08:00.001-07:00

nevertheless , i still never stop yet~
never stop yet in looking through fb for your news feed ~
never stop yet in trying to figure how are u for the day ~

all of this should be in vain as i m doing something things while giving 'fake hope' for myself ~
hope i wish time can rolled back behind ~~~
coz i wannas say < i dont wan let go >
i dont wan it to be just something again, i wan it to be everything for long ~

2011-09-02T20:25:00.000-07:00

the distance is getting further n further away ~
u r just too distance away ~~
how can i ever get near again ~~
to c your smiling face even once more ~~

2011-08-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

i love this guy singing this song ~~its pure ~~
曹軒賓 - 可惜不是你

2011-07-07T06:12:00.000-07:00

sometimes , when we are expecting more than wat we can get ~
is this greedy ?
how do we define greedy ?
is this greedy

2011-06-17T05:59:00.000-07:00

sometimes beings parents are not an easy thing ~~kinda susah also ~~
i feel pity for mine ~all the hardwork, sweats n everything else ~
kinda make me feel guilty when i c them not be able to enjoy even a bit of their own life ~

2011-06-02T23:03:00.000-07:00

roughly 3 more weeks to the training for the interview i succeeded last 2 months but however this 3 weeks will be hard to pass ~~~

sometimes being stuck at home 24 hours a day make me really wanna find some easy going part time ~however due to some external factors ~finding ones is not easy ~

time is an cruel dimension which ll cause ppl to change~~

i guess its different from the older days whereby i feel need n wants are growing accordingly to the age ~~
sometimes i feel i am getting more n more materialistic and complicated
~~
u cant say its not completely 100 percent healthy but i feel somehow if be channel properly it can serve as motivation

list of thing i would hard wish they ll come by ~
below are just illustrated form of things , XD
some are not the exact models yet, as haven decide wat model , brand n type to be desire ~~having them would really kickoff the mood to fight ~

the study week again ~

2011-04-30T03:13:00.000-07:00

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when was the last time i was so free updating my little bloggie ?
i almost forgetten ~~
however all of this busy drought came to an end ~~ending for this sem yet to be coming ~~
as final will be commencing one week later ~~~

embark on a small time dancing for a 2 function here ~~nevertheless the process of learning was pretty hectic as again time is limited ~~~
suppose to be easier for me but however i was the one tat slow everything down ~~~
coz in order for every small details , they in conclusion agree tat i have a kind of own style ~ a style which is more suit to be in tae yang video than big bang video ~~
coz dont have 'sharp edges but instead is more smooth n continuos "

anyway finally it ended ~not as good as i wan but i guess everything should not too emphasis on the result , the process for this time is always the most precious ones ~~arigato ~~

a lot of frens are also leaving for this sem ad ~therefore i have specially organized an album for me n them titling 'each of u and me '
each of the fren with me ~
T_T

the album ll be update slower than usual ~~~
as many pictures need to be edited first ~it shall be my kind of special memories

especially ~
><

penguin~

2011-04-08T00:15:00.000-07:00

in the past one month ,i think i experience a lot~~
nevertheless was tons of assignment n the 'promise of taking lead of the assignment from previous sem' ~~
therefore this sem , i am really tired and being push to the max ~
the price of all this really makes me exhausted ~~

but in the same time , i was not at my best shape ~~
often as i do get some playing from other ppl ~~but sometimes , its really over for me ~maybe to u all its nothing , but i also have feeling ~~
i m feeling each n everyone of them is poking me continuously~~~
can i even put an end onto this ~~
sometimes i really wish to have someone to talk to u ~~yes no doubt , it seems tat i have 'a lot friend' ~~~
but how many of them really are there ~~i really dotn know wat are friends ~~~

sorry if this hurt u all ~~

2011-03-10T19:28:00.000-08:00

hope i have enough stamina to get over this ~

2011-03-01T23:42:00.000-08:00

currently >
half sick lying down on the bed after consuming panadol

but what was the funny thing is when i was lying there on my bed~~
was thinking of someone which i presume i should not think off ~~
apasal my head think pi itu direction ?
stupid me ~~~

how good if i have tat 'someone' that attend to me right now ~~~

i am blaming the two panadol for giving my mind this delusion ~~
~~~

2011-02-21T02:46:00.000-08:00

crucial 24 hours for u~~
kinda complicated feeling ~~
this few day ~~to be at your side ~~~
yet ~~~

anyway~~hope this day ll pass slower ~~
dont know how or wat tomorrow is like~~
i ll support u ~~

gambate~

MONKEY ~

its all happening again but differ in some way~

2011-02-12T05:17:00.000-08:00

11/2/11
Friday

before embarking on the journey of hundred km to the north ~
had stop by for breakfast while waiting for friends~

while eating ,it kinda brings back childhood memory
last time when was still in primary,
by 6.30am have already left the house with whole family in tat proton wira ~~
due to busy schedule , dear mummy n father ll drop my off the small restaurant
while ordering fried mee together wit hot drinks for me and pay for them as well ~~
leaving me to eat while they continue on to work ~~
then i eat alone then walk across the street to head to school ~~~

when i pass tat restaurant , it feels like the same there
at least 14 years had pass since then ~~
to have a simple breakfast wit them something is like harder than dating my friends ~~
even the cars has no longer around ~~
all that i remember has already change ~~

to think back ,
I MISS ALL THOSE PAST TENSE ~~
not to say now is tat bad ~but definitely last time everything was less complex~~~

till then~~
shall be taking off myself better ~~
sign of failing sick soon~~
going to busy wit lots of assignment~~

凌加峻-三个字~~

2011-01-30T20:32:00.001-08:00

as each song carries different meaning
so does this song ~

for the first time it was so coincidence where i listen to it ~~
but sooner later i was falling in love wit it ~
end up to almost addicted ~

is this just all fate or ?

凌加峻-三个字

nei yat yat siu dak je moh chaan laan ngoh jam se dak nei haam jo siu chau ngoh do yuen yi liu bok hung yat siu

chung loi moot yau je moh seung yat gin si yuen loi yau je moh yat gin si choi jik dak ngoh moon lau luen gam tin wai nei sei do hoh yi

* chung chin yau na saam goh ji tin tin gong nei ji sui yin moot san yi daan yau yi si ngoh chue maai chue maai je moh doh si gui ngoh ji seung nei hoh yi gan ngoh yat hei siu chung chin na saam goh ji yan yan do jung yi ho bat hoh si yi daan si yau yau gei goh yan jan jing ming baak na yi si ngoh ji ji do ngoh ji seung nei faai lok

chan jue yan doh doh gong gong sam lui wa gam sin ji jik wooi piu ga chung chi dak nei ji ngoh yam hoh si do bat wooi pa chung loi moot yau je moh seung yat gin si yuen loi yau je moh yat gin si choi jik dak ngoh moon lau luen gam tin jan dik wai nei sei do hoh yi

Repeat *

jau suen gam tin bat joi chong gwoh jok yat ngoh jam moh gong do mo wai jau suen gam tin bat joi chong gwoh jok yat ngoh yuen yi dang ha hui joi dang ha hui joi dang ha hui

chung chin yau na saam goh ji tin tin gong nei ji sui yin moot san yi daan yau yi si ngoh chue maai chue maai je moh doh si gui ngoh ji seung nei hoh yi gan ngoh yat hei siu chung chin na saam goh ji yan yan do jung yi ho bat hoh si yi daan si yau yau gei goh yan jan jing ming baak na yi si ngoh ji ji do ngoh ji seung nei faai lok ngoh ji seung nei faai lok

2011-01-18T05:41:00.000-08:00

done my first item " thing to do on 2011"

settle ~~~
a birthday gift ~~
done done done !!
but exactly was completely satisfied wit the whole wrapping process
i m getting so freaking not so familiar with wrapping anymore ~~

off lur!
have a nice day then~~

2011-01-11T01:53:00.000-08:00

capture this pic recently while having a game of badminton wit few friends ~~
tis pic can really describe wat i am thinking at the moment~~~

unable to fit myself to the current ~~~
feel i should be doing or achieving other thing rather than the situation on the ground ~~
yet , i dont pretty know wat is actually the 'other thing' tat i should be achieving

2011-01-02T04:18:00.000-08:00

at era of new year , ppl would normally set out a couple to dozens of this so called 'resolution' to be complete within this year

well for me , i did too ~~
at least, mine was not a well planned one ~~
randomly generate while having insomnia ~~

generally for me ,i would take these as the things i wanna finish off in addition to this year also will the last two sem in my uni life

proceeding to the list

THINGS TO DO IN 2011
1)at the moment, is a birthday celebration on 18 jan for a friend ~~

< with roughly around 2 weeks plus ~
this gift better be good ~~
it have to surpassed my own standard first ~~
just hope i can really able to finish the preparation all by myself ~~
everything have to go accordingly to the planning too pls~~
ll take a picture of it sooner

XD

present represents appreciation, to show tat u r not forgotten ~~~~

till then alios ~~^^

2010-12-20T10:13:00.000-08:00

when things get out on way , we ll mostly blame ourselves
but the right way , is ~
we should not ~~

no doubt ,
this is the way for us to release ,
but actually this is not healthy n right way to do ~

this is wat i recover accidentally while browsing through magazine ~~
< dont know right or wrong >

kinda been thinking a lot this lately ,
the reason ?
i also dont know ~~~
haha~~
but to say ,
maybe all of these are thinking tat are unnecessary
but with the free time all day n some circumstance ,
those thinking just pop out ~~~

anyway , i feel it ll all past soon ~~
SAME OLD WORDS ~~~~IF IT DIDNT KILL U < IT MAKE U STRONGER>

btw christmas and new year is around the corner , therefore wishing all of u
merry christmas n happy new year in advance ~~
XD

chaos ~~nights ~~
2.27am , 21 dis

a meal on 5 dec < relaxing one >

2010-12-05T08:48:00.000-08:00

a meal of steamboat , around 20 working together
but majority i m the chef ^^
i m in-charge of cooking the soup ~~

feel kinda happy when everyone say the soup was just nice XD

the bowl in contrasting with the cooker ~~

flavoring and the main thing in our soup base

the big portion

something to fill our stomach even more

bowl are gather ~~~

AND NOT THE ELSE DINNER IS SERVED ~~

tomyam pot on the way ^^
extra sour anyone?

just plain n soft chicken soup base

21 nov

2010-11-20T10:21:00.000-08:00

2.22 am in the morning ~
kinda awake yet ~~
exam REALLY AROUND THE CORNER JOR ~~
22/11/2010 urban n rural transport ~~9 am ~~

preparation?
agak agak do lo ~~
do wat my heart n mood takes me to ~~
kinda not very into it ~~
it been causing super spinning with all the calculations
damm i hate calculations ~~

i have wrote this on my wall to motivate me ~~

2.67? apa tu ??result for last sem lo T____T
3.00? planning for this sem ~~dont know how i m going to fork it out ~~
but i ll find a way ~~

DO IT MY WAY ~~~

till then take care o ~~
ll be back to party on 12 of dis ~~
a month holiday awaits me ~~^^

add oil togehter la dear friends
in all
every aspect of life

8 nov ~

2010-11-07T18:51:00.001-08:00

today is better than yesterday ~~
and tomorrow ll be far more better than today ~~~

been home for 2 days after the sudden back from uni due to the flooding in the northern region ~~
well , for the first time i m not forgotten by friends who was rushing to back ~~
thanks to them for fetching me back as well ,

have 2 weeks before back again i think ,
but this 2 week also have to use properly in order to study for the final @@
things been quite complicated ~~
i m a bit afraid for the final actually ~~

anyway in a unrelated case ~~~
a just for fun checkup at the pharmacy reveal i m suffering high blood pressure ~~
yup ~~~
normal ppl would be around 125 ?
but i already at 142 ~~~
high blood pressure ~~~
as the they say a lot of thing may be the cause of it ~~
MOst probably the rest was not enough n stress for studies ???

but yet ~~~i have to rest well and consider going to the hospital for full body check up ~
my parents were quite worry ~~
lol~~bless me pls everyone ~~
till then ~~
take care ~~~
add oil~~everyone ~~~^^

a break pls ~~~~~

2010-10-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

today marks a big spot on my calendar~~
y ??
my assignment is stuck half way due to dont know how to express the idea even i have the idea
the problem on dont know how to elaborate it in simple english really pissed myself off ~~
for the others , its the hard thing to brainstorm out the idea ~~
kinda odd right ??

this really never occur to me~~~
due date are just around the corner ~~~
assignment are the oly thing tat can save my grade from a pool of 'f'~~
yet i m not able to do them well ~~~
wat is gonna happen to my grades @@
no eye c ~~~~

currently taking break munching on this 2 ~~

when i ll be able to settle all of this ??

till then end of it ~~~
aza aza fighting ~~~~

2010-10-11T09:47:00.000-07:00

dear friends ~~~
apasal no one update blog ??

2010-09-26T21:38:00.001-07:00

there is nothing as best lines nor any fancy words ~~
wat important is ~~
the right words at the right time and a caring sincere heart ~~

this are the words that coming up my head ~~
anyone in favour of it ?

2010-09-17T03:26:00.000-07:00

i seriously been thinking this lately ~~~~

i feel i m need of some changes ~~
as i feel i am scoring below my own marking chart ~~

quote from bk ~~i defeat 3 ppl today ??me , myself and I ??
mine ~~~ try this 3 downsizing mark factors which i own~~
not mature ,
no have sense of direcion and
no secure feeling ~~

dont know wat kind of changes , but i know there is a need for a
' new , better of me "
XD
would need all of u ~~supports and opinions XD

maybe i ll go out of this maze box soon ~~

the price of a decision

2010-09-03T09:35:00.000-07:00

every decision comes with a price ~~~
price tat we need to pay for obtaining something ~~~~

i kinda blew of a good offer ~~~
parents willingly to bought me a new hp ~~~

actually i wanted to say , i would really love or its nice to have a new hp ~~
i can have a million reason y i need it `~~
yet another corner i also can have a million reason why i should not have it ~~~~

i been unable to make a firm decision cause i know a lot of thing which is happening within the house ~~~
having a soft heart of dont wan to add misery into their burden , i would just say 'look around first '
maybe to them , i am worrying too much ~~~
but i made a decision

hope i am not regret ~~~~

i m lateusing the things ppl buy for me

2010-08-29T02:41:00.000-07:00

due to the current condition the wallet i m using now
~~~

therefore i had taken wat i keep in the 'safebox'
a birthday present from 21st of my birthday ~~~

i been keeping it out of sight ~~
out of reachable ~~
i have keep it safely it ~~~

as time move on , it have quietly following me ~~
i thinks its time now ~~~
i ll treausre u well~~~

in the 'safebox' there is another priceless possesion ~~
this one i get on the 26/08/2010
isnt not a birthday present or yet something tat hold a deep meaning in it
but as each story has it own line ~~
this one would be as valuable as the others ~~~

i would wonder how long would it take to finally appear~~~

Random updates~~~

2010-08-19T21:27:00.000-07:00

this this this ~~~~
my past time for now ~~~~

mid sem around the corner ~~~
all calculation ~~~
my eyes are like @.@
free me soon ~~~

a late dinner ~~

2010-08-07T06:25:00.000-07:00

i feel my appetite is very huge this lately
dont believe ~~
let c this example XD

0802 pm

after having a short game of futsal with my hostel mate ~~~
my kind neighbour ask me whether do i wan take away ~~~
in the process of waiting
where i can no longer wait ~~
therefore i took 2 of this ~~~

NASI LEMAK IKAN BILIS

plus a mug of hot milo

man tau 1 hour 12 minutes later my dinner arrive , i eaten this as well ~~~

KU LOR YUK RICE

9.31 pm i am full to death XD
i m finding excuse for me to eat ~~~
is this not healthy >>>
tell me about it ~~~

2010-08-05T00:38:00.000-07:00

words i learn ~~~
i feel it sounds nice ~~~

I HAVE STRONG FEELING FOR U ,
BUT ITS UNSURE WHETHER ITS POSITIVE OR NEGATIVE ~

oops~~

2010-06-30T21:27:00.000-07:00

dark chocolates~~
a taste of sweetness which at a moderate level once its enter the mouth ~~~
darker than black ,

its the taste of sweet behind the high percentage black cocoa that flush tat smiling face facing out from the heart ~~~

er ??

2010-06-27T01:40:00.001-07:00

a) big eyes ???
b) s curve body shape ?
c) sweet smile ??/
d) or just that cute impression that she make wit her face when she is blur ???
e) nice hairdo
f) confidence

i think from a to f is the things tat guys would most likely to fell in love it
knowing some of my close friends criteria

eg . wearing glasses , short hair , looks polite XD < Pinjam from someone >

it actually brings down to me i dont know which kind of girl i adore although many has try to analysis that from my past experience ,
among the top 2 criteria tat are most likely to find in my choices of girl are
dimple and chubby

yes , your eye are not perfectly fine

DIMPLE N CHUBBY

sounds weird all of the criteria tat makes up a goddess where does this two thing fell off from

actually i couldnt 100 percent deny as those were really the nice thing tat my ex had

but at the time being ,i really dont know wat kinds of girl ll i adore as i M REALLY SINGLE DESPITE THAT THE FlIRTY MOUTH I have

haven been in relationship in around 5 years ~~~
making the beast lost interest n hunger ~~~

anyway i think its perfectly normal althought a lot ppl are starting to ask me find one asap XD
cincai ba ??

or just perhaps my heart was stolen by a " monkey 'that is not far away ~~
haven got over her yet ~~
she wasnt the best or perhaps receive a thumb up from each n everyone
but the fact
i like her for the way she are ~~
she is pretty , cute , adorable n i wouldnt trade for jessica alba or taeyong for her ~~~
she maybe a little chubby with something to pinch at the face, a little not always the best shape nor academically good grades

BUT i m perfectly fine with her~~~
just fine ~~~

have nice day

sorry to grumble ~~

2010-06-16T08:04:00.000-07:00

actually had a lot of ideas n thoughts
well , how am i to describe ??
i m getting quiet ??
getting lost with words ??
or just something not right ??

i recently found out that i m somehow getting to lazy to explain something when i m being 'sandbag, suan , shoot , bomb or whatever u name it ~~~
more n more incident had occured in this period where i finally feel its too tired getting tied down by all this thing

say whatever u wan , shoot whatever u like ~~~

but let me remind u ,
down beneath everything

being in silent doesnt mean i m good to bully ok ???
i am just holding off so tat things wont turn out too badly to influence other
i m a human with eq n emotion
does it feel so good in u just to make fun of me till like tat ?
ok , a little maybe wont hurt but do u know sometimes its just a bit little too over ~~~

try if u were in my shoes , c wat u ll do `~~~
sometimes stop taking fun over the misery u had added into mine ~~~
we can have fun ,we can chat we can bird together but everyone got a limit right ??

thank u ok ???
this 'thing ' memuncak me tonight making me cant tolerant anymore ....
sorry to vomit it out ~~
if u feel u r the one i m talking , u might wanna try another way
if not , its just a creepy old emotional post ~~~
tq~~

rise from fallen

2010-06-14T21:32:00.000-07:00

well ,
last night released the result sem 4
kinda shock ~~~~

maybe its a sign ?
something shall be done over it as ///
from 3.26 gpa drop til 2.67
really unexpected of tat~~~
normally every sem also manage to maintain but this sem really tumbling down ~~~~

i shall rise from the fallen ~~~
refreshing myself soon

aza aza fighting ~~~
spend this holiday wisely for me , myself and i
^^

2010-05-28T23:54:00.000-07:00

sorry ~~~~~~~~
friends ~~~`
buddies~~~~

2010-05-08T21:50:00.001-07:00

H.O.L.I.D.A.Y
plus working ...feel free to call
me for tea, gathering , eating ///
haha

2010-03-25T21:35:00.000-07:00

the cob carnical dinner at putera palace hotel ..
kinda fun n crazy ...
manage to get a lucky draw as well ...first time in life...
rather less life now is kinda messy
....
but i think i going to come to something later on as ppl say ...
before something good approaches , something messy ll appear first ...

why are the words so lot hor >??
pictures better right ???

me n tall girl kai yun ..

a table of winners < lucky night >

me n last sem ANNA....quite nice ppl lai de ....consider lenglui in some way ...

lenglui trista ...slim slim ....

2010-03-05T00:52:00.001-08:00

Finally …
It’s a relieved …
Something big of the shoulder …an activity that seems to taken all of me …
A event that took a whole 3 month to prepare was even attractive the special guest was DANELL LEE
A star born locally to amazed the stage with 3 of his latest song …

Initial objective was consider achieved but the overall I think the result can be better still if only ..
To be frank I was expecting some or particular friend to say ‘ well done , goob job “
A simple ones ll do ..it ll makes me feel more touch and worthy for everything I contributed ...
Guess from here also I know
A) wat I am capable of …
B) the level of stress I can handle ….
C) my incapability
D) I should be rethink everything ….who, why , what , when

Well I guess I think it just never happen …at least not yet ….
I should be more down to earth …

Trying myself not to emotional involved in this …
Think less ll makes everyones life better …

Time to retire I think ….from all of this , all of this non-stop and hectic time ..

Many of u ll doubt whether can I do I wat say ??
I myself also doubt actually …but temporarily I really need a place to rest or even a soft shoulder to lean on …it may sounds girly or whatever but have u imagine how is it like ???to have a shoulder to lean on when u haven sleep for days ??
But I guess this world wont be perfect no matter how …there ll always be bad things to show are good things for …

Time to get reconnect back to the world … ANYWAY >>>>>THANKS EACH AND EVERYONE OF WPRING WONDERLAND COMMITTEE MEMBER >>>SORRY IF ANYHOW >>>>

Time to wander to off my bed to rest well ….
Take care guys …

2010-01-04T07:48:00.000-08:00

this is the 110 post ...
short n one word to say oly ..
damm busy now ...wait me free back oly come back here blog ...
keep waiting ^^

2009-12-27T04:21:00.000-08:00

alios ...
i go back uni tonight ...
take good care ya kaki kaki pou sekalian ...

mask rider ll be back ...soon ...

18 disember

2009-12-17T09:48:00.000-08:00

really dont know wat to write here ..i guess no one has been updating their blog making me clueless on wat to begin here ,,
well well

yet tomorrow is selangor public holiday ..
i wonder if tomorrow ll make any different ,,,
actually i oly left around 10 days before going back to jungle ...
eventually today i had already started to plan out the luggage beg..
dont think ll spent money on formal clothes for this opening sem ...
wear so nice for wat le >>cincai wear lo ..< a bo , ppl ll say 'wear so nice come study for wat '
kau kau kei kei ll be just fine

hope this sem ll better ya < cross my finger >
at least better than previous ,,,
signing off ....
a unorganised n unroutine posting ..

2009-12-04T09:29:00.001-08:00

stainless steel heart

+

plastic heart

= new heart
=harder than ever , untouchable , no feeling .....
=

latest phrases

haha

2009-11-30T23:44:00.000-08:00

a day to remember
i ll dont know wat to say to a girl ...
dont know how to chat her up ..
lol ...
it happen on me ...

saw her online on msn , wanted to chat wit her
but dont know how to break the ice ,,,,,
each topic or question tat i frequently use to chat wit other ppl just seems not right or just too lame to use for the moment

i need carefully analyze every word of think up wat is the right topic or question or things to be ask ...
new experince , worthy opponent , one of the kind ...

< HAO AA >*25
its like being taken the head and being bang to the mirror of a car a couple of time and yet being able to look back n smile back upon recalling it ...:)

before n now

2009-11-28T11:53:00.000-08:00

last time muz reach home by 12 ...
NOW is reach home by 3 or 4

last time is car pooling , one car up to 6 ppl
NOW one car two ppl < kancil, wira ,saga , myvi > four car going out in a sat outing ..

last time sat was really the day that we awaited the whole week
as many fun ll be achieved
NOW sat seems normal oly ...nothing much ...

last time go out play dont dare speak out loud ..
NOW speaking out loud as if the whole place was ours

last time all need to consider ...
NOW dont need so frust ....just go lo , kia < the usual slogan >

is this happening /??
wat it means .??
are we growing up ???
can i say dont wan ???
i just go back like last time ..
last time life seems easier as i didnt know anything ...
now as growing up , minds tend to be more complex ....
more worries ,,,,,,

come back time
life is always easier in the past ...things are simple , ppl are sincere , minds are clear ....

2009-11-25T08:52:00.000-08:00

i am not greedy am i ???
wish ,,,,,,,,,,,,,
something
some one ...
i hope i m dreaming ....

like in imperfect felicity there mention ....
thats L.I.F.E~~n we human are meant to be t slave of L.O.V.E..
~~~yet we are willing to...
< owner of this words , borrow a while ya >
dont worry ...hak cipta terpelihara by u ....

its not a linear equition ...as opposed to fight with 'theory of maggi '

2009-11-22T03:39:00.000-08:00

well....the opponent randomly pick medusa
i dapat rikimaru
it was hell of a game
rikimaru was supposely on the upper hand where his critical add up his damage ...
but this time riki meet his real time opponent
one of the kind meduasa ..maybe to others this medusa was nothing much
but to riki this medusa was the 'one ' tat was never been encountered before ....

no matter how riki try his attack on ...
medusa still just slumberly receive those encounter attack as if it was nothing
this time was ad chaos time n different ...
riki has used all the things he got ..all the tricks he has on the sleeve . ...the stuff he had learned all this while observing other players ....
critical leveling has ad reach a state tat ppl would be amazed if the same critical has been thrown to them ...
but to this particular medusa ,,,,,it was still nothing ...

it was just doomed doomed ...it had left riki 'clueless' thus a state of dont know wat to do any more ....

2 pro n con
a ) medusa alies < wont be helping both side, oly depends on riki to solely counter > , consider a good advantage for riki
b )riki alies < let go of medusa , persuade other hero to be pawned or aim to be fresh meat > riki dont know how ....
c ) many people who spectate the game say farm in forest first ...play a while enjoying the game, find back the medusa when u eventually get stronger ....
riki dont know how ...

now ???the story also stuned ...how r ???
anyone got any opinion ....

2009-11-14T03:11:00.000-08:00

21 this month i ll be back ....
finally back after a long time ,,,,
i wan to REVITALIZE MYSELF .....

c u all then ,...

2009-10-17T23:44:00.000-07:00

let me go can ???
haih ...stop coming at me ....

2009-09-20T21:43:00.000-07:00

its a song ....
not the latest ...
but i like it very much ..
if oly i can sing n express myself as him ..

wo ting jian yao ren jiao ni bao bei ....
\

btw ....my chatterbox sot d ...anything left comment in the post ..
some more ..
how come my visitor so high te ???any spam is it ???last time i c oly 2000++
but now is 11940++
y ???i not trying to show off ok ???

dual attack

2009-09-14T07:26:00.000-07:00

if accident are bad , consider twice ..
wat if being hit by two accident in the nearest time .,,
before ever recover , again being hit ,,,

its just so doomed doomed doomed
DUAL ATTACK ....
bila baru mau recover ...
how and wat is the cure /??

haih ...moody struck me again tonight .
i just need for some one to chat wit ...
i just recalled we never spoken to each other happily ad ...since a long time ..

thinking 's

2009-09-03T23:43:00.001-07:00

no matter ....
just try n live on ..
no matter how hard ,,,
no matter how u dont wan it to happen .....

long time ago ....punya posting

2009-09-03T23:25:00.000-07:00

Haha ….officially 21 ….
Don’t know how to describe today …l..
Receive quite many sms today ….a whole of them ….
Thank to all ….< Ah ben …c this …..not oly u got …I also got ….haha ….>

Via Surprise ‘ small celebration ‘
Christine ,
jasmine ,
swee ling ,
chia chia ,
leanne,
mei ling ,
pei sze ,
hui shan ,
kelvin …
I ll remember the process of being a santa claus ……

Via Sms

Jason,
ben ,
voon ceh ,
shiaw yiah ,
sin yee ,
hwee sze ,
juin giap ,
jasmine,
see keat,
ching chun,
fei shan ,
yi qin ,
jia jia ,
vee mae,
cindy ,
siew yen ,
yu king ,
gay yong ,
xue li ,
dang ,
yi xin ,
ivy ,
alice ,
yy ,
beng lang ,
hui ling ,
seow jun ,
lay hoon

Via Personally face to face

Yi tat ,
Zu wern

Via Facebook

mei ling ,
lian ti ,
wilson ,
vienna cheong ,
chia kie ,
ke xin ,
audrey ,
yunya ,
alex yip ,
ling goh ,
siew yen ,
erin chong ,
sister ,
yeoh ker lee ,
tiffany chin ,
senny lim ,
kit shang ,
boon heng ,
rwiney lee ,
yuk ling ,
ping ling ,
poh keong ,
pauline lim ,
chun kiat ,
boon kiat ,
jeffre ,
eugene ,
z-kan ,

Haha ….i know ,,, quite a lot ….
How come oly girls tat wish a lot ???
I also don’t know ,.,,,,
But anyway I quite happy today …

Sometimes the size n how the celebration is not important , but its they way they plan , mastermind the surprise , do according to the plan to surprise tat someone is more important …..
I like the surprise although its not very surprising ,,,,coz I can guess almost everything ad actually …
Haha …I know ..blame me ….

2009-08-21T20:18:00.000-07:00

3 more hours then ll be in bus lo ///
finish holiday ...enough of playing ad i guess ....
muz go pack now ...
chaoo ...

2009-08-18T03:34:00.000-07:00

i guess everyone is just busy ....
tats fine ..
alright ..

2009-08-14T20:17:00.000-07:00

a much better day , much brighter .....
feel much better ...fever begin to slow down ...
but ...
still weak .....feel tired ....

yesterday was quite miserable ,after reaching from uni the sick tat started before coming back to home is becoming more n more serious
headache , coughing , sore throat , running nose ...rise and fall of the fever ...

sick in house but no one to drive, i just didnt able to drive ...i feel very tired ...
at last i really force myself up ...bring myself to doctor ...
doctor say ' omg , u have a quite high fever....101 f ..

i was like har ???/101 ????high ???
means i hot ???? hehe ....]
posted those in fb ...really happy when receive encouragement from alot of friends
....thanks ya .....
at the same , i was hoping someone would to sms me or even ask ' how r u '
i guess it just never happen ..
wont happen too i guess ,,,,,

will i end up in hospital for h1n1 checkup ???the odds are 50 by 50 lo ...
depends this few day lo , if fever cant control ,...then something muz be wrong .....
i dont wan go le ....

btw .....i hate eating medicine , it sux ....
pui pui pui ...big n colourful sweet /??/u wan have a try ???/
kill me better .....

i wish upon

2009-07-31T10:02:00.001-07:00

for being able to live to full most today , i m greedy... i making more wishes ...
in generally to all ....may it reach to all ...

h1n1 muz be away soon , u have cause a lot of disaster .....

to those hu JUST in a relationship n THOSE hu as someone bu their side .., appreciate more ..not easy to be wit someone ..tell them ...how important they r ...

those hu got problems ...talk to a friend ok mou ??dont keep to yourself ...
u ll make all of us worry ....friend was made to share ...

those hu assumed heavy responbility ,joining something tat never was on their way ...
u r chosen for wat u r capable of ...
jia you ...
u can te ...

to those hu ffk for busines matter , its alright ...
u r forgiven ...i under ...

to all friends ....friend are not easy to come by ...
dont because small thing ruin it ....

TO THOSE HU TELLING MANY THINGS TO U , TELL ALL THOSE DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING ...
NOT DOING ALL TAT DAY TO MAKE U FEEL REGRET OR TOUCHED ....
JUST SIMPLY WAN TELL U ...
COZ U R DIFFERENT ...SPECIAL ...

dont under ???
never mind coz ..
i also dont under...
haha,,,

random shots

2009-07-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

was doing nothing much in house , so basically just took camera phone se810 snap her snap there ...
wan c how was my hand ??/
old ad ???karat ????

so the result ????

other than tv , radio is a good option ...hehe...
95.85 ...offers u the latest song n wacky djs ...

i wan a pair of speaker like those ..
big , solid n loud ...

of course the one i had now , is by samsung .....

this is to insipired us to study ???

if only , my room had this on the wall...
i ll be rich or even stuff to death wit presents

medicines ...a lot le ...
wat to do ???
if sick means got to eat it lo ...
very lot le////
haih ...

my miniature dream car ???
haha ..i dont wan in red ..
i wan in white or even black pls ...
i must be dreaming //

hair product for grooming ...
an essential item for HAIR to create those wild spiky look ....

an sport item for c oly ...rare use ///
strictly perhiasan

favourite item . ...
a scent to flirt , a scent to attract ...

i damm like the smelll....
silver shadow
< atitude >\
david off

2009-07-28T23:16:00.000-07:00

i was here ...
but just simply dont know wat to tell ..
where to start , how n y ....
i just dont know ...

back soon if anything ...

2009-07-22T18:36:00.000-07:00

just woke after a 12 hours sleep after consuming a pair of panadol ...

u name it , i got it....fever , flu , sore throat and extremely blur ...
anyway i feel better temporarily ...

TIME TO REDO AND WORK HARD FOR OUR MOYC,
JIAYOU ALL !!

i guess its cold here ....raining , breezing every single thing away ...
in this cold weather it would be very good n warm if someone pop out ...
last night i was dreaming of u ...
yup ..tats it ..i know it ...
.its not bullshiting ...
haha ....I KNOW ...

listening this song this lately
m2m pretty boy . ..
i wonder if i m someone's pretty boy ???
SOMEONE'S ???

p/s ...thanks swee ling for YOUR ADVICE ....
u r the man ....:)

weird change

2009-07-20T01:04:00.001-07:00

because of some words or phrases , it tend to lead me to think more ...more than enough ....for some simple words i am doubting ...do they really mean it ????
y ???among them are <

1) i m touched
2) miss u
3) actually u r not bad person , kinda not bad guy ...

because i tend to care very much wat ppl think of me and their opinion to me this lately ,
a lot of ppl had told i some how am changing ....i am different from last sem ...
eventually i know it , but i cant state the reason ,cant describe the reason behind this change,,,
i am also starting to lose in understanding myself and wat i wan ...
maybe its because of certain things tat happen tat makes me wan change , ...

i wan to win back my marks which has been lower , wan get a from every ppl view ....
wan to prove myself am worthy , someone hu deserved to be given a chance ...no matter in term

i just dont trust myseld ,
low in confident
even i know in some factors i maybe good , i just need reassured from ppl or praising from time to time to keep me going on this long road

i thought but actually it wasnt so

2009-07-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

i thought i knew but actually i dont ....

i thought i was getting near into making our distance nearer , but actually my
ignorance was indeed only making our distance further ...

i thought i was something to u , but actually i dont even meant a single thing....

i thought a blind's man stick being able to help u r needed but actually i am no
difference than a torchlight in the day light ...< useless n no point >

i thought i was anyhow make u feel better but actually i was creating more headache
problem to u ....

I thought i was seen for wat i am in your eye but actually to u i maybe just another
normal passerby in your life with no difference at all ....

i thought i am remember for wat i am but actually i wont be thought of as i am not anyone wit particular reason for u to be remember for ....

i thought u ll cry for me if anything happen but actually u would just gladly take it
as something normal and just care for a friend ....

i thought i can have u if i try hard enough by waiting in patiently hoping a slight chance but actually i am just losing as i dont have the luck , ability and whatever it to deserve u ....

i thought i was making reality by creating magic in every happiness u bring but actually i was just oly dreaming when i am thinking too much ....

p/s /.....i m writing for fun , no any particular moody or emo nor anything ...
i m just exploring my inner me hu wan to express my piece of thinking or my say ....

2009-07-05T10:00:00.000-07:00

sleepless again ..and AGAIN

this insomnia thing is just hitting me more n more often wit more serious come back each time ..
couldnt say i dont know wat i was thinking ..
maybe its because i know wat < me , myself , i > was thinking tat make myself feel i m so useless ....
no use crying over the split milk but i am still eventually blaming myself

alex ...u r so no use ....

y cant i
just be normal ppl have normal routine , normal life , normal ending ...
how come its was me the oly one feeling tis word is just so unfair ...
others are able to get ...
i m not so greedy actually ...

can i just disappear away >>>.

2009-07-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

its raining here ...i m down with sore throat again ....little sneezing ad ....
h1n1 ???
i hope so ..
hehe ....
so fast its sem 3 ....
officialy a big senior now ..
wat to do ???
blur condition ....
tired today ...
tats all ...
bye ...

dont wan regret

2009-06-09T02:41:00.000-07:00

yesterday has receive a call from yng yng ....
she told me a news while crying ...someone we knew pass away ....
its sam ....car accident ..
may u rest in peace ....

upon hearing it ...i was shocked till now ...one whole day le ...still shocked ...
tat day i been keep on thinking
how come life so fragile te le ????tat day before come back from uum still c him look fine te ...
all of us was eventually planning to gather around after sem3 reopen ...
now ..

i whole day dont wat to do ...i call the rest of the friend < springfest 09 exchibition bureau > to let them ....call them d , dont know how to tell them ...
guess of all us was very shocked ...

today i had my day off ...just dont feel like talking or going out ..
haih ....
this thing just keep on popping in mind ...pls forgive me
if it can happen to sam , it can just happen to all of us ...
if we were to leave tomorrow ,
will we regret ???
I WILL ...I GOT A LOT THINGS WAN TELL ...GOT A LOT THINGS I WAN DO ...
MOST IMPORTANTLY ...

GOT WAT THING WAN TO DO MUZ DO ....DONT DELAY D ..
I WILL
APPRECIATE MORE ....

dont worry , i be ll fine ...
take care all ...
dont too sad le ....< yng yng >

come d lo ...as i guess ...

2009-06-03T05:58:00.000-07:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Plain water.
2. Last phone call: Father.

3. Last text message: Promotion from DiGi.

4. Last song you listened to: wo ting jian you ren jiao ni bao bei ..lin jun hui
5. Last time you cried: cant remember ad ....last month i guess ...a few tears count ??

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: wat u mean by twice ??? most probably no

7. Been cheated on: how i know o ??

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No

9. Lost someone special: consider so ...not as in die la but ...

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: yup...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. light green

13. white

14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: a few i think ?

16. Fallen out of love: Not sure.

17. Laughed until you cried: dont think so. =D

18.Met someone who changed you: yeap ..

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you: always ??/

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Not yet ..

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Mostly.

23. How many kids do you want to have: 3 or more i think ...depend of wife also ..hehe

24. Do you have any pets: tak ada

25. Do you want to change your name: sometimes lo ,macam a bit too girlish le ...

26. What did you do for your last birthday: at uum , been surprised by a group of friend lo ...very happy too

27. What time did you wake up today: 8 something, i dont feel like getting up by the way ..feel tired ...

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: my bed , dreaming d i guess

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my birthday this year ...hope for something

30. Last time you saw your Mother: now . she is beside me lighting the joss stick

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: perhaps to a better look n a singing voice ???
32. What are you listening to right now:my earphone .. dbsk< miss u >

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: macam ada ...tak ingat sangat

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Waiting for someone in msn to reply ,=.=

35. Most visited webpage: blogger, facebook.

36.Whats your real name: alex lian li peng

37. Nicknames: alex ,

38. Relationship Status: Single and still hunting ???haha..

39. Zodiac sign: Virgo

40. Male or female?: Male.

41. Elementary?: Tadika Batu Belah.

42. Middle School?: S.K (1) Jalan Meru

43. High school/college?: High School Klang.

44. Hair colour: Black

45. Long or short: short

46. Height: 160 something . Not sure.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: dont know ???wat is even crush ???i doubt i know wat does it mean ??

48. What do you like about yourself?: not sure ...

49. Piercings: 0

50. Tattoos: None

51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Nope

53. First piercing: i want to have one on my ear ...left ear ...but think oly ..

54. First best friend: forgetten lu ...kaka

55. First sport you joined: badminton is it /??

56. First vacation: forgetten as well

57. First Boss : Dont know hu is him te wor ,,.tat time first job was saturday night waiter at restaurant

58. First pair of trainers: Dunno.

NOW:

59. Eating: nothing to eat ...

60. Drinking: soup ..mum cooked soup ..

61. I'm about to: yawn ..for some reason i feel tired ...
62. Listening to: Jetaudio.. wo ting jian you ren jiao ni bao bei ..lin jun hui

63. Waiting on: someone to reply in msn ..

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Sure! 3 or more of them.

65. Get Married?: sure, tat if also if i manage to find a gf first ..hehe ...

66. Career?: dunno ...dont wan plan to far ahead ...as it ll be la ...

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: both

68. Hugs or kisses: both

69. Shorter or taller: Shorter

70. Older or Younger: Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud: both

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: depends on the people lo ...

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: No

77. Drank hard liquor: I guess so…

78. Lost glasses/contacts: ya ...my first glasses ...

79. Sex on first date: not yet ???haha

80. Broken someone's heart: erm ....dont know ...a few ??

82. Been arrested: by teacher? Yes!

83. Turned someone down: Yeap.

84. Cried when someone died: Yes, my grandma ...long time ago ..

85. Fallen for a friend?: as if ???wat kind of friend ??guys ???haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: half half ///

87. Miracles: wat is miracle o ???haih ????someone out there hu know something ??haha ...

88. Love at first sight: i think i CANT GUA ???

89. Heaven: never imagined it ..

90. Santa Claus: IN TV OLY ??

91. Kiss on the first date: no ...slowly lo i guess ...

92. Angels: It’s only a fairy tale they believe…< copy from ben , this is wat i think also .>

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

95. Did you sing today?: ya ...

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: of course ...but there is also some one whom i never will cheat upon ...no matter wat ...haha ...

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: relived my life again ...although it is not exactly happy all the time ...wan to change something ,,,to c thing more clearly ..

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: i got answer ...dont wan share ...haha ..i m greedy ...i wan 3 days ,...

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: at the moment ???yeah ???hu is there for me ???

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes,i am trying

5 ppl i tagged ...

swee ling
chia kie
pauline
cindy
fei shan

2009-06-02T08:37:00.000-07:00

saya ada semacam feel ...i ll kena d ...

ben ....
thanks la anyway ...at least u ll think of me ....haha
banyak gay hor ???
lol

2009-05-25T17:59:00.001-07:00

i saw this song over swee ling blog ...addicted to it ....nice song ...share wit the rest here ...
applause here ...

2009-05-24T17:21:00.000-07:00

finally i am sleeping ...
went to bad before 12 last night .
but keep on awake ....roughly dozens of time last night ....
walao ....like this go on cannot le ....
anyone ???anyways ????

not sleeping ...

2009-05-23T18:42:00.000-07:00

right now is 9.43 am ...i awake d ...despite last night just reach home after partying till we 4 am +++\
upon reaching home i couldnt even open my door ...the key just cant get in the hole ..
hands was shacking .....
WAS THAT TERRIBLE ????
at last also manage to unlocked...

The reason for the celebration was vinny celebration of 21st birthday ...
alcohol level was high enough till i can sometime dont walk straight enough
...glasses of red wine was like tasteless ribena ...
3 full glasses in 5 minutes ...glup glup ....glup ..
follow on ...some more dont know drink how many glasses d ...
a sign of unhappiness ???

how come i am drinking so smooth te ?
the feel is there ....red wine was quite in the good quality but i drank it like a cheapskate beer ,,,,

this 2 days i wasnt able to sleep ...2 freaking days ad ,,,barely sleep oly 9 hours ....
using alcohol to make me sleep was no longer in use ...
getting resistant to it ad ...
oh yeah ...my body is freaking pain and tired ..i cant sleep despite how tired i am ....

kepada orang yang mengetahui ceritanya ....
history repeating ....wounds are deeper ....invulnerable ....the cause n effect are getting to me ,...i just couldnt take it ...cant release also ...all of it are jamming into my soul ...
in a state of something i never felt before .....
drop to the deepest hole in the world ....
cant get up back ...
dont c the sunlight anymore ....
will time cure or any helping hand ll come back ???

btw ,...JG also wake up d ....he also cant sleep ...hahaha

applause /??

2009-05-22T09:58:00.000-07:00

cun betul ...wat the h ***....
wat i dream really eventually come true ,..
m**** ,,,,wt*...
tomorrow go buy sport toto , 4d , 3d ...
number is 4567 ...
dont so greedy ....

indeed today i am not very myself ...
working political ,,,,i am d*** f******
annoyed ....

fall in the darkest pit ....ca******
sorry r ...today specially got many *****
really boh song till max d ..
bursting ...
this holiday really SYOK ????

2009-05-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

one more week past d ....
saw a yns couple ,,,,,
dont know wat to say le ...
dont know is jealous or wat ..

pendek kata .....
saw them makes me terimagine lots of thing ...

sot zor ?/?/

2009-05-16T06:03:00.000-07:00

saturday night le ...
i stuck here r,...haih ...
moods macam tak kelihatan ...

last night i had a weird dream le ,,,
my dreams are getting weirder as the day past ..
so teruk le ...
arent dreams are suppose to be imaginary happiness ....
how come recently macam oly nightmares ???
tones of them ...
a sign ???

today when was working ..heard some song....song tat makes me think of some one
jj lin ( small dimple )...
jay chow ( a song time )...
,,
thinking of u r ...someone's

2009-05-13T11:21:00.000-07:00

wat to write le ...
nothing much happen ...

anyway ..i ll be working soon ...tomorrow morning to be exact ...
station one ...again
never mind la actually ...
mean nothing to me ...
put a little time out to gain back somethings ????
job is easy i guess
to past some time
or
whatever la ...
good night everyone + someone's

p/s ...jason ..thanks for the treat ya ???only one glass enought la ...haha
benn .....u scare me out ...spooky ..
jg .....dont so moody ...

nice session of tea at the bamboo ...
signing off lo ...night ..

a creation

2009-05-11T09:07:00.000-07:00

just a random post ...
it came out of no where ...
no special meaning ...
heading to no where ...

when u were not around ...
i misses u ....
things were not the same as before ...
your voice , your smell or even the atmosphere is totally so different
its just undescribeable ...
i m seeing things tat arent there ...
hearing things tat doesnt exist
wat my eye saw is only a an reflection of u in my heart ,,,,
didnt contact wit u doesnt mean i totally forgetten about u ..
i just cant find any good excuse in sms or calling u anymore ..

just wanted to heard your voice...
let u know everything ...
let memories of simple stuff be back ...

i miss u ...
very much ...
to u ,...
i sincerely ...
do ...

the journey 7/5/09

2009-05-08T04:02:00.000-07:00

after having my tid exam it was balik kampung time ...hehe...
was suppose to leave uum at 2 pm ...end up ...leave at 3.13....
the vios is cramp wit bags and stuff ...
not forgeting there are four ppl in it ..me , neejian , emily n yee von ...

well ...never mind then ..journey was ll be taking long time so we stop at quite a number of petrol station ....
by the overwhelming joy of finish exam ...we wan eat delicious food ....
place of suggestion >>
pinang or ipoh ...
end up ...dont stop la ...go back home first ...

at somewhere near ipoh we decided to eat something first ,,,
therefore we stop at at rnr area....i eaten a tasteless plate of malay food ...expensive like hell some more ,,

after eaten ....someone took over the wheel ...emilyn ...
drive quite fast ....
i suddenly have an opinion of amazed by her ....she drive quite ok ...calm hands ...
ommm...u should c the meter ....0 to 130+++..
tim r her ...

half way not long ..stop again ....me this time ...feel not well ...wan to vomit d....
was it due to the food or emilyn skill of driving >??
no one know ...i guess ...
they persuaded me to sleep a while ...maybe ll feel better ....

it was 7 pm ad ...when we stopped AGAIN ...the stop we make was another r n r area ,,,this time i am awake ....
i get to drive ad ...hahah ....feel very enjoy ad meter speeding until 140++
haha ...syok syok

pop up the but and reach for my sweater ....feel great behind the wheels .....the sickness seems gone for a while ...eveyone was asleep i guess ...

until ...suddenly reach tanjung malim ...when i decided to slow down as everyone was sleeping ...SOME NOISE COMING FROM BEHIND ..CAR WAS SHACKING ...
something wrong wit car ....

Decided to pull over n check at a nearby petrol station ...tayar puncture ...oh no ...althought it was in the middle of the high way ,,,but it was lucky ,,,,we manage to stop and try to change it ,...
guess wat ,,,none of us know how to change ...i know a bit but i dare not ...

it was this two bangladeshi pump attendant come n offer us help ..trying to help us change ..it seems the skru was looked very hard ,,,,neither both of them can open it after a period of trying ..

something wrong ad ...time to call for help

....
another good ppl come help ...they wit a kind face have a look ...they explain ...
'ya ,,,the 2 gong gong te ppl did the wrong thing ad la ,...instead of loosen they tighten it some more ..even the skru patah ad ....'
cant open ad ...u got to find better tools from lorry drive to help open ad....

find help lo ...
thanks malaysian for having such nice ppl
..
lastly ...everything settle ...tayar changed ,...3 nuts oly ...cannot drive so fast ...

reach home at 0001....
safe n sound reach ...
tired ....
haih ...wat a sui day ....

something i wan to let u know ...when ....i was sick and the car tayar puncture ...i was thinking of u ...thinking of doesnt ll solve my problem ...
but i really think of u ....wan to tell u everything ...

i m back

2009-05-07T09:59:00.000-07:00

12.58 am .i m back ..
lots of story happen today on the journey
...update later ..

the full stop !!

2009-05-04T06:34:00.000-07:00

particularly ....lots of ppl have already go home le ...one by one ....

to ..see keat
yng yng
zoey

thank for your before left sms ...thanks for asking me to jia you and mostly ...TELL ME U ALL MISS ME DURING THIS 2 MONTH ...
thank u thank u

how come i feel very touch te ???/
i ter'bang' my head ????

add on to tat
when someone told me 'i left d '.....
those particular time...
i struck there as my soul has already my body .....

2 more day is tid exam .....no preparation n no mood to face it ...
how come ??i also wonder ...
all i had now is oly sleepless night .....
sleep by dawn i think ...around 4 to 6 ...then wake up normally at noon ....
the whole afternoon would just playing dota in order not think about anything ....
after tat ll keep lying there ....on bed ....starring the ceiling ....

....
god help me < jordan chan >

wat goes around comes around ...my turn d ...

2009-04-25T01:50:00.000-07:00

Rules:~Copy it to your blog post, erase my answers, enter yours, and lastly tag 10 people.~Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.~They have to be real. Nothing made up!~If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.~You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What Is Your Name : alex
2. A Four Letter Word : atom
3. A Boy's Name : alexander :)
4. A Girl's Name : angel , anna , april , angela
5. An Occupation : anthropologist
6. A Color : apple green
7. Something You'll Wear : nothing start wit a ...i think
8. Any Noun From The Bible : erm.....i know wat is bible la ...but noun from it ???dont know le
9. A Food : american breakfast
10. Something Found In The Bathroom Or Your Bag : a pack of tissue
11. A Place : alor setar ^^
12. A Reason For Being Late : a special particular person call up ...she is so important till i put on hold evrything i m doing at tat particular moment
13. Something You'd Shout : a car le ...watch out < haha>
14. A Movie Title : a new beginning ...ice age 2
15. Something You Drink : a fine glass of red wine
16. A Musical Group : aerosmith
17. An Animal : a caterpillar
18. A Street Name : alor gajah street
19. A Type Of Car : atos ...hyundai
20. The Title Of A Song : apologize

People I Tag :
1. Cindy Ooi
2. swee ling
3. mei ling
4. sin ying
5. joan
6. chin wen
7. fei shan
8. lyndy lim
9. yuk ling
10. jia chyi

no guys oly girls ???how come ///coz all the guys kena tagged finished ad....

pictures to replace words

2009-04-16T12:10:00.000-07:00

tired as .....facing numbers,papers , formulas all day ...trying my very best to conquer qqs ....despite how i try , i am not still good enough ...

waiting for your call ....was it always also i find u first ???if i dont find u first < will u find me ???
happy even if were to receive an encouragement sms from u ...
u know hu u r ???

is everything alright ????
things ll change ???

i m fine

2009-04-13T23:18:00.000-07:00

tomorrow ll be my first paper on final exam ad ...
tomorrow is the hardest paper up to now ...
haih ..
pmg 2013...teori pengangkutan dan logistik ....i really feel cant manage at all ...when open book feel very no mood ...
sometimes read also till eyes a bit watery ....

maybe because of too stress and not been resting well , end up fall sick ..
y i always sick te ???
the previous night eat 2 panadol oly go sleep ...
today morning wake up , not long after tat been keep on going to toilet ....end up makan po chai yi .,,,,

many of u might be wondering y am i so i moody this few days ....
msn title are indeed so emo ??/
yup ...no lies , something had happen ...but i dont think i ll ever share wit u all ...call me selfish but really sorry ...this thing i dont really wan to share ....
not one has know this thing yet ....
dont think ll let anyone know ...
its been bugging me quite long ad ..it has to come to an end ...
life still have to move on....
because of this thing also i had make a harsh decision ...
a decision i had thought very long ,,,,i feel very bad n suffer also in making tat decision ,,,been quite some since this kind of thing happen .,
just .....time ll heal ....
i ll be fine , dont worry ...

anyway ...let u all know something . i went for an interview for an activity call MOYC....Malaysia Outstanding Youth Conference ....
some sort like a open to public forum /talk by some people who had receive this award in this recent years
details such as to be held in Genting if everything is going to plan around end of july ..........
lots of thing need to be do from now on ..
got in the PR bureau ...Public relation ...means had to deal with promoting , doing exhibition n press conference ....
wat u all think ???suits me ??
i myself feel kind of doubt whether able to fully commit myself to this event or not ...as i fear i am not capable enough ....this event is going to be big .....
happy to know i really got in , but another is fear o ....

overheard something tat can cheer up me now ....
if it doesnt kill u , it ll make u stronger ...
hehe
...right ????

TAKE CARE ALL ...
p/s ...ben , dont call me 3 g ..say a bit d dont wan contnue ?/dont tiau gen ???
jg and wilson ....all the best in study ...
jason , graduating soon d ????welcome to work o ..hehe.

lots more to say bue dont know wat to say ...anyway hope u all ll take care ...< tl , bk , angel , sam , and all others ...

finally and not least ....my beloved uni friends ...
jia you for our tough final ....
those who work wit me for assingment < particularly for tid specialy thanks to swee ling , mei ling , pauline

thanks u all for everything ....

INtroducing Chipmunk Mushroom

2009-04-03T22:27:00.000-07:00

here it goes

introducing this muchroom ....
a friend of mine ....
good things are suppose to be shared right ????
well , i think she is the 'a' grade product ...
looks good for me ...but wats even better is she come wit the brain ...u just name it ...she is almost capable of doing a lot things ,....even dont know she also ll just make it happen ..

look ....3 out of 5
personality ....4 out of 5
worthy to own ....a well tresure item ...rare enough ...if owner dont wan ,there should be a lot ppl out there wan
dont know how to let u know anymore ..

p/s .....mushroom ....be more confident in yourself .....u really are very good d .....

wat is earth hour ...

2009-03-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

surrounding me now is darkness .....many of the ppl here has switch off their light ....to support earth hour ....i had also done wat i can ...taken my laptop to the hall n online ....

stuck in this condition actually gives us a chance to think ...
a moment in dark silent ...give us the ability to clear our head thinking out all those big question marks existed all this while ....
when we ll stop thinking ???/when we close our eye at the graveyard ???
or as when we finally out breath the last of air

a mask which we wear

2009-03-18T20:00:00.000-07:00

having to face this world ...we sometimes have to cover our real face wit a 'mask '
we have to press against our heart and say the opposite of wat we like or wan ..
knowing this , are we actually lying to ourself ,....??
beneath the mask u may differ from wat u really looked like in outer .
hidding ourselves in it ....
may just means u dont wan to hurt someone or somehow hurt your very own heart ....

for instance ,,,
we may dont like to stay up late , but for the sake for doing an assingment or project event ...we have push ourselves to the very limit...and when other ppl ask "are u fine ?are u tired ? u would most sincerely say "no < i m fine >

is it eventually normal ???but to me , i hate it ...
i LIE ,,,

a busy week ahead

2009-03-05T20:23:00.000-08:00

just finish my sains pemikiran etika mid sem exam ...

in memory of alex

yup .....terkorban dengan beraninya

by right i should be heading home since got public holidays on the 9 of march ...but instead i am siting here ...watching the rest go back one by one ....
it ll be a busy week ahead for me ....few projects going on ...
really wish i can divide or even mutiple myself to multi task all the things i need to do ...

i receieve a forward mail this lately whom i feel is quite meaningful ,...share wit u all here....

To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
給我單身朋友們
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
愛就像一隻蝴蝶。越要追牠，卻越要逃避。
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
如果就隨牠自由的飛，牠會在你最不注意時飛向你。
make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
愛使人快樂，卻常傷害人。但只有在你把愛給了一個真正值得付出的人時，是最珍貴的。
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
所以，花點時間去選擇最好的他 /她吧

To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
給我那不是單身的朋友們
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
愛不能使他 /她成為一個 '完美的人 '
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
它卻可以使你找到一個幫你成長的他 /她

To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
給我玩世不恭的朋友們
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
如果你不在乎，不要說 '我愛你 '。如果他們不在時，不要討論自已的感受
aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
不要涉足會使他人心碎的生活。
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
說謊時，不要看著眼睛。
to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works
最殘忍的事莫過於男人讓女人愛他，卻是逢場作戲。反之亦然 …
both ways...

To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
給我已婚的朋友們
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
不要老是說 '這是你的錯 '，何不說說 '對不起 '。
but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
不要老是問 '你去哪裡了 '，何不說說 '我就在這兒等著你 '。
不要老是問 '你怎麼會這麼作？ '，何不說說 '我了解你 '。
wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'
不要老是說 '我希望你這麼做 '，何不說說 '我感謝你的一切 '。

To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
給我那已訂婚的朋友們
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
要真正衡量包容心，不是看在一起幾年了，而是要看彼此的敬愛
good you are for each other.

To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
給我心碎的朋友們
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
心碎的時間和傷害的深度，完全取決於你自已。
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
難的是，如何從中學習，而不是從傷痛中爬起。

To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
給我所有天真的朋友們
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
要如何戀愛？ --就愛吧。不要欲言又止；要互相協調，不要太固執；
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
要分享，且千萬不要有不公平；要了解，別命令；
and get hurt but never keep the pain.
受傷後不要再記恨。

To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
給我積極的朋友們
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
看到你所愛的他 /她和其他人很快樂使你心碎
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
但知道你所愛的他 /她是和你在一起不快樂，令人更加的傷心。

Friends Who Are.............AFRAID TO CONFESS
給我害怕去承認的朋友們
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
當你和他 /她分手時，愛受到傷害
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
當他 /她和你分手時，更是傷痛
love has no idea how you feel.
但傷害最深的是你所愛的他 /她完全無法了解你的感受

To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
給我那還在等待的朋友們
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
人生最傷心的事，是你和他 /她愛情長跑了多年，最後的結局卻不如所望。
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not
' 如果他/ 她現在讓你覺得不值得付出，那麼一年，甚至十年後，都不會值得付出的。
going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....
讓他 /她走吧

the price of a promises???

2009-02-23T01:07:00.000-08:00

have u made promise to other ppl and yet u still forget wat u promise them after tat particular perios >>>
where is the worthy side of a promises ??
do we really care tat whether they really do wat they promise or do we mind whether do they keep in a mind tat once time ago someone have promise u something

arent a promise was suppose to kept in heart n bear in mind ??? is it just a symbolic or just something u say for fun ???
to me ....its some way that u devote something to some one ....even in the simplest form promises ....we should always bear in mind ...right ???

feeling tat i m a bit emo ???well ,,, lots of ppl this lately saying tat i m bit emo this lately ...how weird is it if i just dont feel like talking >>>
stuck in a moment of blurriness ++

i ll remember wat i say today ....i promise u ok ???believe me ???

2009-02-13T08:50:00.000-08:00

so long no online ad ....was disconnected for a while ...was quite busy this lately wit the uum Spring Fest 2009....well , its a major project involving 200++ ppl ....photos ll uploaded later on ...dont worry ...

to all ...take care ....
happy valentine o ..

2009-01-27T18:17:00.001-08:00

chinese new year was soooo fine
...ang pow ???
less by the quantity....quality ???decrease as well ....

chinese new year seems different a bit ...no mood, no feel .....something lacking ....anyway ...in some part its has been quite shocking ...

i m so eager to study well n hope ....thing ll improve ...
after chinese new year it would 'valentine day'....

how??any plans anyone ??

2009-01-12T06:27:00.004-08:00

....things was nt so smooth tonight ...wasnt in the mood to talk...not even to anyone ....
it come in the sudden..dont know wat cause it ....anyway ...ll be heading home next week .....chinese new year holiday is rather short ...so ..

muz enjoy it ....

2009-01-06T00:34:00.000-08:00

i m still alive ...but busy oly ...
sem 2 have already started...as usual in the beginning ll be more busy as many things haven settle yet ....

anyway happy birthday to wilson ....happy 21 st birthday ....

looong .....post .....

2008-12-20T10:41:00.000-08:00

today i got a lot of things wan say o...dont know can find hu to listen le ..
now is 2.45 am ,just finish bathing ,,,,,
i just return from outside ...
today it seems quite long for me ...went in went out the whole day ad ....

started off today wit having lunch wit jason n ben at eng ann ..long time no go ad ....other than eating we also kinda of meet up to finalise the bbq things ....

...organising it seems very difficult as many small problem occur ....i really think wan give up d ...but deep in my heart i know some ppl be disappointed ..benjamin n jason was very supportive to me ...at last now , its on ad ...money collected , ll starting to prepare n buy the things ad ....

indeed today i was surprised by my another friend ...he told me he started a online selling clothes business and ask me help him promote since ,,,,knowing this is a small favour to him
i am trying to promote now ...
actually i was very attracted to his idea ...
i got think of joining him as a partner after investing some money if i can ..well it would be good to have a part time income while studying in uni ....this kind of job is quite free n suits my style ...but its all oly a thinking oly la ...

2 things tat bother me the most is about 2 ppl hu r important to me now ...
each wit their own way of making me moody .....haih ..dont wish to pour out here anyway ....
how come le ???

off liao la ..moodiness getting deep ...sleep better la for now ....dont want think so much ....

come n c ...

2008-12-20T01:27:00.000-08:00

this website for buying clothes is owned by my friend ,,,,i m helping him to promote here as it newly created oly ..,,,,if u all like any of it , u all can let me know .....i help u all contact him staight ....pls support o ...

http://www.ingfashion-sen2e.com/