i saw this song over swee ling blog ...addicted to it ....nice song ...share wit the rest here ...
applause here ...

finally i am sleeping ...
went to bad before 12 last night .
but keep on awake ....roughly dozens of time last night ....
walao ....like this go on cannot le ....
anyone ???anyways ????

not sleeping ...

right now is 9.43 am ...i awake d ...despite last night just reach home after partying till we 4 am +++\
upon reaching home i couldnt even open my door ...the key just cant get in the hole ..
hands was shacking .....
WAS THAT TERRIBLE ????
at last also manage to unlocked...


The reason for the celebration was vinny celebration of 21st birthday ...
alcohol level was high enough till i can sometime dont walk straight enough
...glasses of red wine was like tasteless ribena ...
3 full glasses in 5 minutes ...glup glup ....glup ..
follow on ...some more dont know drink how many glasses d ...
a sign of unhappiness ???

how come i am drinking so smooth te ?
the feel is there ....red wine was quite in the good quality but i drank it like a cheapskate beer ,,,,






this 2 days i wasnt able to sleep ...2 freaking days ad ,,,barely sleep oly 9 hours ....
using alcohol to make me sleep was no longer in use ...
getting resistant to it ad ...
oh yeah ...my body is freaking pain and tired ..i cant sleep despite how tired i am ....

kepada orang yang mengetahui ceritanya ....
history repeating ....wounds are deeper ....invulnerable ....the cause n effect are getting to me ,...i just couldnt take it ...cant release also ...all of it are jamming into my soul ...
in a state of something i never felt before .....
drop to the deepest hole in the world ....
cant get up back ...
dont c the sunlight anymore ....
will time cure or any helping hand ll come back ???


btw ,...JG also wake up d ....he also cant sleep ...hahaha

applause /??

cun betul ...wat the h ***....
wat i dream really eventually come true ,..
m**** ,,,,wt*...
tomorrow go buy sport toto , 4d , 3d ...
number is 4567 ...
dont so greedy ....

indeed today i am not very myself ...
working political ,,,,i am d*** f******
annoyed ....

fall in the darkest pit ....ca******
sorry r ...today specially got many *****
really boh song till max d ..
bursting ...
this holiday really SYOK ????

one more week past d ....
saw a yns couple ,,,,,
dont know wat to say le ...
dont know is jealous or wat ..



pendek kata .....
saw them makes me terimagine lots of thing ...

sot zor ?/?/

saturday night le ...
i stuck here r,...haih ...
moods macam tak kelihatan ...

last night i had a weird dream le ,,,
my dreams are getting weirder as the day past ..
so teruk le ...
arent dreams are suppose to be imaginary happiness ....
how come recently macam oly nightmares ???
tones of them ...
a sign ???

today when was working ..heard some song....song tat makes me think of some one
jj lin ( small dimple )...
jay chow ( a song time )...
,,
thinking of u r ...someone's

wat to write le ...
nothing much happen ...


anyway ..i ll be working soon ...tomorrow morning to be exact ...
station one ...again
never mind la actually ...
mean nothing to me ...
put a little time out to gain back somethings ????
job is easy i guess
to past some time
or
whatever la ...
good night everyone + someone's



p/s ...jason ..thanks for the treat ya ???only one glass enought la ...haha
benn .....u scare me out ...spooky ..
jg .....dont so moody ...

nice session of tea at the bamboo ...
signing off lo ...night ..

a creation

just a random post ...
it came out of no where ...
no special meaning ...
heading to no where ...




when u were not around ...
i misses u ....
things were not the same as before ...
your voice , your smell or even the atmosphere is totally so different
its just undescribeable ...
i m seeing things tat arent there ...
hearing things tat doesnt exist
wat my eye saw is only a an reflection of u in my heart ,,,,
didnt contact wit u doesnt mean i totally forgetten about u ..
i just cant find any good excuse in sms or calling u anymore ..

just wanted to heard your voice...
let u know everything ...
let memories of simple stuff be back ...


i miss u ...
very much ...
to u ,...
i sincerely ...
do ...

the journey 7/5/09

after having my tid exam it was balik kampung time ...hehe...
was suppose to leave uum at 2 pm ...end up ...leave at 3.13....
the vios is cramp wit bags and stuff ...
not forgeting there are four ppl in it ..me , neejian , emily n yee von ...




well ...never mind then ..journey was ll be taking long time so we stop at quite a number of petrol station ....
by the overwhelming joy of finish exam ...we wan eat delicious food ....
place of suggestion >>
pinang or ipoh ...
end up ...dont stop la ...go back home first ...


at somewhere near ipoh we decided to eat something first ,,,
therefore we stop at at rnr area....i eaten a tasteless plate of malay food ...expensive like hell some more ,,

after eaten ....someone took over the wheel ...emilyn ...
drive quite fast ....
i suddenly have an opinion of amazed by her ....she drive quite ok ...calm hands ...
ommm...u should c the meter ....0 to 130+++..
tim r her ...


half way not long ..stop again ....me this time ...feel not well ...wan to vomit d....
was it due to the food or emilyn skill of driving >??
no one know ...i guess ...
they persuaded me to sleep a while ...maybe ll feel better ....


it was 7 pm ad ...when we stopped AGAIN ...the stop we make was another r n r area ,,,this time i am awake ....
i get to drive ad ...hahah ....feel very enjoy ad meter speeding until 140++
haha ...syok syok

pop up the but and reach for my sweater ....feel great behind the wheels .....the sickness seems gone for a while ...eveyone was asleep i guess ...

until ...suddenly reach tanjung malim ...when i decided to slow down as everyone was sleeping ...SOME NOISE COMING FROM BEHIND ..CAR WAS SHACKING ...
something wrong wit car ....

Decided to pull over n check at a nearby petrol station ...tayar puncture ...oh no ...althought it was in the middle of the high way ,,,but it was lucky ,,,,we manage to stop and try to change it ,...
guess wat ,,,none of us know how to change ...i know a bit but i dare not ...

it was this two bangladeshi pump attendant come n offer us help ..trying to help us change ..it seems the skru was looked very hard ,,,,neither both of them can open it after a period of trying ..

something wrong ad ...time to call for help

....
another good ppl come help ...they wit a kind face have a look ...they explain ...
'ya ,,,the 2 gong gong te ppl did the wrong thing ad la ,...instead of loosen they tighten it some more ..even the skru patah ad ....'
cant open ad ...u got to find better tools from lorry drive to help open ad....


find help lo ...
thanks malaysian for having such nice ppl
..
lastly ...everything settle ...tayar changed ,...3 nuts oly ...cannot drive so fast ...



reach home at 0001....
safe n sound reach ...
tired ....
haih ...wat a sui day ....

something i wan to let u know ...when ....i was sick and the car tayar puncture ...i was thinking of u ...thinking of doesnt ll solve my problem ...
but i really think of u ....wan to tell u everything ...

i m back

12.58 am .i m back ..
lots of story happen today on the journey
...update later ..

the full stop !!

particularly ....lots of ppl have already go home le ...one by one ....

to ..see keat
yng yng
zoey

thank for your before left sms ...thanks for asking me to jia you and mostly ...TELL ME U ALL MISS ME DURING THIS 2 MONTH ...
thank u thank u


how come i feel very touch te ???/
i ter'bang' my head ????


add on to tat
when someone told me 'i left d '.....
those particular time...
i struck there as my soul has already my body .....


2 more day is tid exam .....no preparation n no mood to face it ...
how come ??i also wonder ...
all i had now is oly sleepless night .....
sleep by dawn i think ...around 4 to 6 ...then wake up normally at noon ....
the whole afternoon would just playing dota in order not think about anything ....
after tat ll keep lying there ....on bed ....starring the ceiling ....


....
god help me < jordan chan >

wat goes around comes around ...my turn d ...

Rules:~Copy it to your blog post, erase my answers, enter yours, and lastly tag 10 people.~Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions.~They have to be real. Nothing made up!~If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers.~You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

1. What Is Your Name : alex
2. A Four Letter Word : atom
3. A Boy's Name : alexander :)
4. A Girl's Name : angel , anna , april , angela
5. An Occupation : anthropologist
6. A Color : apple green
7. Something You'll Wear : nothing start wit a ...i think
8. Any Noun From The Bible : erm.....i know wat is bible la ...but noun from it ???dont know le
9. A Food : american breakfast
10. Something Found In The Bathroom Or Your Bag : a pack of tissue
11. A Place : alor setar ^^
12. A Reason For Being Late : a special particular person call up ...she is so important till i put on hold evrything i m doing at tat particular moment
13. Something You'd Shout : a car le ...watch out < haha>
14. A Movie Title : a new beginning ...ice age 2
15. Something You Drink : a fine glass of red wine
16. A Musical Group : aerosmith
17. An Animal : a caterpillar
18. A Street Name : alor gajah street
19. A Type Of Car : atos ...hyundai
20. The Title Of A Song : apologize

People I Tag :
1. Cindy Ooi
2. swee ling
3. mei ling
4. sin ying
5. joan
6. chin wen
7. fei shan
8. lyndy lim
9. yuk ling
10. jia chyi

no guys oly girls ???how come ///coz all the guys kena tagged finished ad....

pictures to replace words

tired as .....facing numbers,papers , formulas all day ...trying my very best to conquer qqs ....despite how i try , i am not still good enough ...




waiting for your call ....was it always also i find u first ???if i dont find u first < will u find me ???
happy even if were to receive an encouragement sms from u ...
u know hu u r ???




is everything alright ????
things ll change ???

i m fine

tomorrow ll be my first paper on final exam ad ...
tomorrow is the hardest paper up to now ...
haih ..
pmg 2013...teori pengangkutan dan logistik ....i really feel cant manage at all ...when open book feel very no mood ...
sometimes read also till eyes a bit watery ....

maybe because of too stress and not been resting well , end up fall sick ..
y i always sick te ???
the previous night eat 2 panadol oly go sleep ...
today morning wake up , not long after tat been keep on going to toilet ....end up makan po chai yi .,,,,


many of u might be wondering y am i so i moody this few days ....
msn title are indeed so emo ??/
yup ...no lies , something had happen ...but i dont think i ll ever share wit u all ...call me selfish but really sorry ...this thing i dont really wan to share ....
not one has know this thing yet ....
dont think ll let anyone know ...
its been bugging me quite long ad ..it has to come to an end ...
life still have to move on....
because of this thing also i had make a harsh decision ...
a decision i had thought very long ,,,,i feel very bad n suffer also in making tat decision ,,,been quite some since this kind of thing happen .,
just .....time ll heal ....
i ll be fine , dont worry ...



anyway ...let u all know something . i went for an interview for an activity call MOYC....Malaysia Outstanding Youth Conference ....
some sort like a open to public forum /talk by some people who had receive this award in this recent years
details such as to be held in Genting if everything is going to plan around end of july ..........
lots of thing need to be do from now on ..
got in the PR bureau ...Public relation ...means had to deal with promoting , doing exhibition n press conference ....
wat u all think ???suits me ??
i myself feel kind of doubt whether able to fully commit myself to this event or not ...as i fear i am not capable enough ....this event is going to be big .....
happy to know i really got in , but another is fear o ....


overheard something tat can cheer up me now ....
if it doesnt kill u , it ll make u stronger ...
hehe
...right ????

TAKE CARE ALL ...
p/s ...ben , dont call me 3 g ..say a bit d dont wan contnue ?/dont tiau gen ???
jg and wilson ....all the best in study ...
jason , graduating soon d ????welcome to work o ..hehe.


lots more to say bue dont know wat to say ...anyway hope u all ll take care ...< tl , bk , angel , sam , and all others ...


finally and not least ....my beloved uni friends ...
jia you for our tough final ....
those who work wit me for assingment < particularly for tid specialy thanks to swee ling , mei ling , pauline

thanks u all for everything ....

INtroducing Chipmunk Mushroom

here it goes



introducing this muchroom ....
a friend of mine ....
good things are suppose to be shared right ????
well , i think she is the 'a' grade product ...
looks good for me ...but wats even better is she come wit the brain ...u just name it ...she is almost capable of doing a lot things ,....even dont know she also ll just make it happen ..

look ....3 out of 5
personality ....4 out of 5
worthy to own ....a well tresure item ...rare enough ...if owner dont wan ,there should be a lot ppl out there wan
dont know how to let u know anymore ..

p/s .....mushroom ....be more confident in yourself .....u really are very good d .....

wat is earth hour ...

surrounding me now is darkness .....many of the ppl here has switch off their light ....to support earth hour ....i had also done wat i can ...taken my laptop to the hall n online ....

stuck in this condition actually gives us a chance to think ...
a moment in dark silent ...give us the ability to clear our head thinking out all those big question marks existed all this while ....
when we ll stop thinking ???/when we close our eye at the graveyard ???
or as when we finally out breath the last of air

a mask which we wear

having to face this world ...we sometimes have to cover our real face wit a 'mask '
we have to press against our heart and say the opposite of wat we like or wan ..
knowing this , are we actually lying to ourself ,....??
beneath the mask u may differ from wat u really looked like in outer .
hidding ourselves in it ....
may just means u dont wan to hurt someone or somehow hurt your very own heart ....


for instance ,,,
we may dont like to stay up late , but for the sake for doing an assingment or project event ...we have push ourselves to the very limit...and when other ppl ask "are u fine ?are u tired ? u would most sincerely say "no < i m fine >



is it eventually normal ???but to me , i hate it ...
i LIE ,,,

a busy week ahead

just finish my sains pemikiran etika mid sem exam ...

in memory of alex

yup .....terkorban dengan beraninya

by right i should be heading home since got public holidays on the 9 of march ...but instead i am siting here ...watching the rest go back one by one ....
it ll be a busy week ahead for me ....few projects going on ...
really wish i can divide or even mutiple myself to multi task all the things i need to do ...



i receieve a forward mail this lately whom i feel is quite meaningful ,...share wit u all here....


To My Friends Who Are...........SINGLE
給我單身朋友們
Love is like a butterfly. The more you chase it, the more it eludes you. But
愛就像一隻蝴蝶。越要追牠，卻越要逃避。
if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you least expect it. Love can
如果就隨牠自由的飛，牠會在你最不注意時飛向你。
make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when you give it
愛使人快樂，卻常傷害人。但只有在你把愛給了一個真正值得付出的人時，是最珍貴的。
to someone who is really worth it. So take your time and choose the best.
所以，花點時間去選擇最好的他 /她吧







To My Friends Who Are............NOT SO SINGLE
給我那不是單身的朋友們
Love isn't about becoming somebody else's 'perfect person.' It's about
愛不能使他 /她成為一個 '完美的人 '
finding someone who helps you become the best person you can be.
它卻可以使你找到一個幫你成長的他 /她






To My Friends Who Are............PLAYBOY/GIRL TYPE
給我玩世不恭的朋友們
Never say 'I love you' if you don't care. Never talk about feelings if they
如果你不在乎，不要說 '我愛你 '。如果他們不在時，不要討論自已的感受
aren't there. Never touch a life if you mean to break a heart. Never look
不要涉足會使他人心碎的生活。
in the eye when all you do is lie. The cruelest thing a guy can do to a girl is
說謊時，不要看著眼睛。
to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall and it works
最殘忍的事莫過於男人讓女人愛他，卻是逢場作戲。反之亦然 …
both ways...





To My Friends Who Are............MARRIED
給我已婚的朋友們
Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm sorry.' Not 'where are you',
不要老是說 '這是你的錯 '，何不說說 '對不起 '。
but 'I'm right here.' Not 'how could you', but 'I understand.' Not 'I
不要老是問 '你去哪裡了 '，何不說說 '我就在這兒等著你 '。
不要老是問 '你怎麼會這麼作？ '，何不說說 '我了解你 '。
wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are.'
不要老是說 '我希望你這麼做 '，何不說說 '我感謝你的一切 '。






To My Friends Who Are............ENGAGED
給我那已訂婚的朋友們
The true measure of compatibility is not the years spent together but how
要真正衡量包容心，不是看在一起幾年了，而是要看彼此的敬愛
good you are for each other.






To My Friends Who Are............HEARTBROKEN
給我心碎的朋友們
Heartbreaks last as long as you want and cut as deep as you allow them to
心碎的時間和傷害的深度，完全取決於你自已。
go. The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks but to learn from them.
難的是，如何從中學習，而不是從傷痛中爬起。






To My Friends Who Are............NAIVE
給我所有天真的朋友們
How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be consistent but not too
要如何戀愛？ --就愛吧。不要欲言又止；要互相協調，不要太固執；
persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand,
要分享，且千萬不要有不公平；要了解，別命令；
and get hurt but never keep the pain.
受傷後不要再記恨。






To My Friends Who Are............POSSESSIVE
給我積極的朋友們
It breaks your heart to see the one you love happy with someone else but
看到你所愛的他 /她和其他人很快樂使你心碎
it's more painful to know that the one you love is unhappy with you.
但知道你所愛的他 /她是和你在一起不快樂，令人更加的傷心。




Friends Who Are.............AFRAID TO CONFESS
給我害怕去承認的朋友們
Love hurts when you break up with someone. It hurts even more when
當你和他 /她分手時，愛受到傷害
someone breaks up with you. But love hurts the most when the person you
當他 /她和你分手時，更是傷痛
love has no idea how you feel.
但傷害最深的是你所愛的他 /她完全無法了解你的感受




To My Friends Who Are............STILL HOLDING ON
給我那還在等待的朋友們
A sad thing about life is when you meet someone and fall in love, only to
人生最傷心的事，是你和他 /她愛情長跑了多年，最後的結局卻不如所望。
find out in the end that it was never meant to be and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it. If he isn't worth it now he's not
' 如果他/ 她現在讓你覺得不值得付出，那麼一年，甚至十年後，都不會值得付出的。
going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....
讓他 /她走吧

the price of a promises???

have u made promise to other ppl and yet u still forget wat u promise them after tat particular perios >>>
where is the worthy side of a promises ??
do we really care tat whether they really do wat they promise or do we mind whether do they keep in a mind tat once time ago someone have promise u something


arent a promise was suppose to kept in heart n bear in mind ??? is it just a symbolic or just something u say for fun ???
to me ....its some way that u devote something to some one ....even in the simplest form promises ....we should always bear in mind ...right ???



feeling tat i m a bit emo ???well ,,, lots of ppl this lately saying tat i m bit emo this lately ...how weird is it if i just dont feel like talking >>>
stuck in a moment of blurriness ++




i ll remember wat i say today ....i promise u ok ???believe me ???

so long no online ad ....was disconnected for a while ...was quite busy this lately wit the uum Spring Fest 2009....well , its a major project involving 200++ ppl ....photos ll uploaded later on ...dont worry ...

to all ...take care ....
happy valentine o ..