willingly to help others in a group assignment and willingly to help it with the heart is one big difference ~

i just realized i miss u the most when replying a fren via sms
i know i hope the ppl i am replying sms is u ~
miss u ~~undeniable
T____T

how long can i go on ?
its really a question~~~

3.04 am 5 th oct 11

accidentally found this song in the song list
been keep on repeating since then ~
my companion in this quite night as i struggling really hard for academic purpose~~~

this part lyric is the fantasy part ~~~

WE WANNA ROCKA, ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA , ROCKA ( so fantastic )
go ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA, ROCKA ( so elastic )

FANTASTIC, FANTASTIC, FANTASTIC ,FANTASTIC, ELASTIC , ELASTIC, ELASTIC , ELASTIC ~~




time turn back ~~~

my is it always is my fault?
y everything have to go wrong oly tat time ~
where is my darn iq n eq missing when i needed them the most~
i m sincerely hoping ~~
=(

红颜一笑
by defination ,
smile from someone u like~

did i still saw it just now ?
or just illusion or over thinking ?

from me , to u , abouts us

From me , To u , About us
from the eyes of the photographer to the view of the audience ~
nevertheless the storyline is all about us , each and everyone around at that particular time , particular moment ~



the philosophy which i set out in each of "alex Photography "
perhaps i may just a beginner in this journey of capturing but i really hope to share it ~
i believe in that particular second, that very moment when that particular is something special , that particular moment should captured down ~
perhaps due to the fact that everything is fragile and nothings last ~
this is where the role of the pic comes in ~~
it makes us remember , it makes us treasure , it makes us feel something inside~



p/s : i wan a dslr baby so badly ~unfortunately i cant afford it right now ~~

nevertheless , i still never stop yet~
never stop yet in looking through fb for your news feed ~
never stop yet in trying to figure how are u for the day ~

all of this should be in vain as i m doing something things while giving 'fake hope' for myself ~
hope i wish time can rolled back behind ~~~
coz i wannas say < i dont wan let go >
i dont wan it to be just something again, i wan it to be everything for long ~

the distance is getting further n further away ~
u r just too distance away ~~
how can i ever get near again ~~
to c your smiling face even once more ~~

i love this guy singing this song ~~its pure ~~
曹軒賓 - 可惜不是你

sometimes , when we are expecting more than wat we can get ~
is this greedy ?
how do we define greedy ?
is this greedy

sometimes beings parents are not an easy thing ~~kinda susah also ~~
i feel pity for mine ~all the hardwork, sweats n everything else ~
kinda make me feel guilty when i c them not be able to enjoy even a bit of their own life ~

roughly 3 more weeks to the training for the interview i succeeded last 2 months but however this 3 weeks will be hard to pass ~~~

sometimes being stuck at home 24 hours a day make me really wanna find some easy going part time ~however due to some external factors ~finding ones is not easy ~

time is an cruel dimension which ll cause ppl to change~~

i guess its different from the older days whereby i feel need n wants are growing accordingly to the age ~~
sometimes i feel i am getting more n more materialistic and complicated
~~
u cant say its not completely 100 percent healthy but i feel somehow if be channel properly it can serve as motivation


list of thing i would hard wish they ll come by ~
below are just illustrated form of things , XD
some are not the exact models yet, as haven decide wat model , brand n type to be desire ~~having them would really kickoff the mood to fight ~

the study week again ~

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when was the last time i was so free updating my little bloggie ?
i almost forgetten ~~
however all of this busy drought came to an end ~~ending for this sem yet to be coming ~~
as final will be commencing one week later ~~~


embark on a small time dancing for a 2 function here ~~nevertheless the process of learning was pretty hectic as again time is limited ~~~
suppose to be easier for me but however i was the one tat slow everything down ~~~
coz in order for every small details , they in conclusion agree tat i have a kind of own style ~ a style which is more suit to be in tae yang video than big bang video ~~
coz dont have 'sharp edges but instead is more smooth n continuos "

anyway finally it ended ~not as good as i wan but i guess everything should not too emphasis on the result , the process for this time is always the most precious ones ~~arigato ~~





a lot of frens are also leaving for this sem ad ~therefore i have specially organized an album for me n them titling 'each of u and me '
each of the fren with me ~
T_T

the album ll be update slower than usual ~~~
as many pictures need to be edited first ~it shall be my kind of special memories




especially ~
><

penguin~

in the past one month ,i think i experience a lot~~
nevertheless was tons of assignment n the 'promise of taking lead of the assignment from previous sem' ~~
therefore this sem , i am really tired and being push to the max ~
the price of all this really makes me exhausted ~~


but in the same time , i was not at my best shape ~~
often as i do get some playing from other ppl ~~but sometimes , its really over for me ~maybe to u all its nothing , but i also have feeling ~~
i m feeling each n everyone of them is poking me continuously~~~
can i even put an end onto this ~~
sometimes i really wish to have someone to talk to u ~~yes no doubt , it seems tat i have 'a lot friend' ~~~
but how many of them really are there ~~i really dotn know wat are friends ~~~

sorry if this hurt u all ~~

hope i have enough stamina to get over this ~

currently >
half sick lying down on the bed after consuming panadol

but what was the funny thing is when i was lying there on my bed~~
was thinking of someone which i presume i should not think off ~~
apasal my head think pi itu direction ?
stupid me ~~~


how good if i have tat 'someone' that attend to me right now ~~~

i am blaming the two panadol for giving my mind this delusion ~~
~~~

crucial 24 hours for u~~
kinda complicated feeling ~~
this few day ~~to be at your side ~~~
yet ~~~


anyway~~hope this day ll pass slower ~~
dont know how or wat tomorrow is like~~
i ll support u ~~

gambate~





MONKEY ~

its all happening again but differ in some way~

11/2/11
Friday

before embarking on the journey of hundred km to the north ~
had stop by for breakfast while waiting for friends~

while eating ,it kinda brings back childhood memory
last time when was still in primary,
by 6.30am have already left the house with whole family in tat proton wira ~~
due to busy schedule , dear mummy n father ll drop my off the small restaurant
while ordering fried mee together wit hot drinks for me and pay for them as well ~~
leaving me to eat while they continue on to work ~~
then i eat alone then walk across the street to head to school ~~~




when i pass tat restaurant , it feels like the same there
at least 14 years had pass since then ~~
to have a simple breakfast wit them something is like harder than dating my friends ~~
even the cars has no longer around ~~
all that i remember has already change ~~


to think back ,
I MISS ALL THOSE PAST TENSE ~~
not to say now is tat bad ~but definitely last time everything was less complex~~~

till then~~
shall be taking off myself better ~~
sign of failing sick soon~~
going to busy wit lots of assignment~~

凌加峻-三个字~~

as each song carries different meaning
so does this song ~


for the first time it was so coincidence where i listen to it ~~
but sooner later i was falling in love wit it ~
end up to almost addicted ~

is this just all fate or ?










凌加峻-三个字


nei yat yat siu dak je moh chaan laan ngoh jam se dak nei haam jo siu chau ngoh do yuen yi liu bok hung yat siu

chung loi moot yau je moh seung yat gin si yuen loi yau je moh yat gin si choi jik dak ngoh moon lau luen gam tin wai nei sei do hoh yi



* chung chin yau na saam goh ji tin tin gong nei ji sui yin moot san yi daan yau yi si ngoh chue maai chue maai je moh doh si gui ngoh ji seung nei hoh yi gan ngoh yat hei siu chung chin na saam goh ji yan yan do jung yi ho bat hoh si yi daan si yau yau gei goh yan jan jing ming baak na yi si ngoh ji ji do ngoh ji seung nei faai lok

chan jue yan doh doh gong gong sam lui wa gam sin ji jik wooi piu ga chung chi dak nei ji ngoh yam hoh si do bat wooi pa chung loi moot yau je moh seung yat gin si yuen loi yau je moh yat gin si choi jik dak ngoh moon lau luen gam tin jan dik wai nei sei do hoh yi





Repeat *

jau suen gam tin bat joi chong gwoh jok yat ngoh jam moh gong do mo wai jau suen gam tin bat joi chong gwoh jok yat ngoh yuen yi dang ha hui joi dang ha hui joi dang ha hui

chung chin yau na saam goh ji tin tin gong nei ji sui yin moot san yi daan yau yi si ngoh chue maai chue maai je moh doh si gui ngoh ji seung nei hoh yi gan ngoh yat hei siu chung chin na saam goh ji yan yan do jung yi ho bat hoh si yi daan si yau yau gei goh yan jan jing ming baak na yi si ngoh ji ji do ngoh ji seung nei faai lok ngoh ji seung nei faai lok