i thought but actually it wasnt so

i thought i knew but actually i dont ....

i thought i was getting near into making our distance nearer , but actually my
ignorance was indeed only making our distance further ...

i thought i was something to u , but actually i dont even meant a single thing....

i thought a blind's man stick being able to help u r needed but actually i am no
difference than a torchlight in the day light ...< useless n no point >

i thought i was anyhow make u feel better but actually i was creating more headache
problem to u ....

I thought i was seen for wat i am in your eye but actually to u i maybe just another
normal passerby in your life with no difference at all ....

i thought i am remember for wat i am but actually i wont be thought of as i am not anyone wit particular reason for u to be remember for ....

i thought u ll cry for me if anything happen but actually u would just gladly take it
as something normal and just care for a friend ....

i thought i can have u if i try hard enough by waiting in patiently hoping a slight chance but actually i am just losing as i dont have the luck , ability and whatever it to deserve u ....

i thought i was making reality by creating magic in every happiness u bring but actually i was just oly dreaming when i am thinking too much ....



p/s /.....i m writing for fun , no any particular moody or emo nor anything ...
i m just exploring my inner me hu wan to express my piece of thinking or my say ....