sleepless again ..and AGAIN

this insomnia thing is just hitting me more n more often wit more serious come back each time ..
couldnt say i dont know wat i was thinking ..
maybe its because i know wat < me , myself , i > was thinking tat make myself feel i m so useless ....
no use crying over the split milk but i am still eventually blaming myself



alex ...u r so no use ....



y cant i
just be normal ppl have normal routine , normal life , normal ending ...
how come its was me the oly one feeling tis word is just so unfair ...
others are able to get ...
i m not so greedy actually ...


can i just disappear away >>>.