21 this month i ll be back ....
finally back after a long time ,,,,
i wan to REVITALIZE MYSELF .....

c u all then ,...

let me go can ???
haih ...stop coming at me ....

its a song ....
not the latest ...
but i like it very much ..
if oly i can sing n express myself as him ..

wo ting jian yao ren jiao ni bao bei ....
\



btw ....my chatterbox sot d ...anything left comment in the post ..
some more ..
how come my visitor so high te ???any spam is it ???last time i c oly 2000++
but now is 11940++
y ???i not trying to show off ok ???

dual attack

if accident are bad , consider twice ..
wat if being hit by two accident in the nearest time .,,
before ever recover , again being hit ,,,

its just so doomed doomed doomed
DUAL ATTACK ....
bila baru mau recover ...
how and wat is the cure /??

haih ...moody struck me again tonight .
i just need for some one to chat wit ...
i just recalled we never spoken to each other happily ad ...since a long time ..

thinking 's

no matter ....
just try n live on ..
no matter how hard ,,,
no matter how u dont wan it to happen .....

long time ago ....punya posting

Haha ….officially 21 ….
Don’t know how to describe today …l..
Receive quite many sms today ….a whole of them ….
Thank to all ….< Ah ben …c this …..not oly u got …I also got ….haha ….>

Via Surprise ‘ small celebration ‘
Christine ,
jasmine ,
swee ling ,
chia chia ,
leanne,
mei ling ,
pei sze ,
hui shan ,
kelvin …
I ll remember the process of being a santa claus ……

Via Sms

Jason,
ben ,
voon ceh ,
shiaw yiah ,
sin yee ,
hwee sze ,
juin giap ,
jasmine,
see keat,
ching chun,
fei shan ,
yi qin ,
jia jia ,
vee mae,
cindy ,
siew yen ,
yu king ,
gay yong ,
xue li ,
dang ,
yi xin ,
ivy ,
alice ,
yy ,
beng lang ,
hui ling ,
seow jun ,
lay hoon

Via Personally face to face

Yi tat ,
Zu wern


Via Facebook

mei ling ,
lian ti ,
wilson ,
vienna cheong ,
chia kie ,
ke xin ,
audrey ,
yunya ,
alex yip ,
ling goh ,
siew yen ,
erin chong ,
sister ,
yeoh ker lee ,
tiffany chin ,
senny lim ,
kit shang ,
boon heng ,
rwiney lee ,
yuk ling ,
ping ling ,
poh keong ,
pauline lim ,
chun kiat ,
boon kiat ,
jeffre ,
eugene ,
z-kan ,








Haha ….i know ,,, quite a lot ….
How come oly girls tat wish a lot ???
I also don’t know ,.,,,,
But anyway I quite happy today …

Sometimes the size n how the celebration is not important , but its they way they plan , mastermind the surprise , do according to the plan to surprise tat someone is more important …..
I like the surprise although its not very surprising ,,,,coz I can guess almost everything ad actually …
Haha …I know ..blame me ….

3 more hours then ll be in bus lo ///
finish holiday ...enough of playing ad i guess ....
muz go pack now ...
chaoo ...

i guess everyone is just busy ....
tats fine ..
alright ..

a much better day , much brighter .....
feel much better ...fever begin to slow down ...
but ...
still weak .....feel tired ....

yesterday was quite miserable ,after reaching from uni the sick tat started before coming back to home is becoming more n more serious
headache , coughing , sore throat , running nose ...rise and fall of the fever ...


sick in house but no one to drive, i just didnt able to drive ...i feel very tired ...
at last i really force myself up ...bring myself to doctor ...
doctor say ' omg , u have a quite high fever....101 f ..


i was like har ???/101 ????high ???
means i hot ???? hehe ....]
posted those in fb ...really happy when receive encouragement from alot of friends
....thanks ya .....
at the same , i was hoping someone would to sms me or even ask ' how r u '
i guess it just never happen ..
wont happen too i guess ,,,,,



will i end up in hospital for h1n1 checkup ???the odds are 50 by 50 lo ...
depends this few day lo , if fever cant control ,...then something muz be wrong .....
i dont wan go le ....



btw .....i hate eating medicine , it sux ....
pui pui pui ...big n colourful sweet /??/u wan have a try ???/
kill me better .....

i wish upon

for being able to live to full most today , i m greedy... i making more wishes ...
in generally to all ....may it reach to all ...


h1n1 muz be away soon , u have cause a lot of disaster .....


to those hu JUST in a relationship n THOSE hu as someone bu their side .., appreciate more ..not easy to be wit someone ..tell them ...how important they r ...


those hu got problems ...talk to a friend ok mou ??dont keep to yourself ...
u ll make all of us worry ....friend was made to share ...


those hu assumed heavy responbility ,joining something tat never was on their way ...
u r chosen for wat u r capable of ...
jia you ...
u can te ...



to those hu ffk for busines matter , its alright ...
u r forgiven ...i under ...


to all friends ....friend are not easy to come by ...
dont because small thing ruin it ....


TO THOSE HU TELLING MANY THINGS TO U , TELL ALL THOSE DOESNT MEAN ANYTHING ...
NOT DOING ALL TAT DAY TO MAKE U FEEL REGRET OR TOUCHED ....
JUST SIMPLY WAN TELL U ...
COZ U R DIFFERENT ...SPECIAL ...




dont under ???
never mind coz ..
i also dont under...
haha,,,

random shots

was doing nothing much in house , so basically just took camera phone se810 snap her snap there ...
wan c how was my hand ??/
old ad ???karat ????

so the result ????







other than tv , radio is a good option ...hehe...
95.85 ...offers u the latest song n wacky djs ...






i wan a pair of speaker like those ..
big , solid n loud ...








of course the one i had now , is by samsung .....






this is to insipired us to study ???









if only , my room had this on the wall...
i ll be rich or even stuff to death wit presents





















medicines ...a lot le ...
wat to do ???
if sick means got to eat it lo ...
very lot le////
haih ...






my miniature dream car ???
haha ..i dont wan in red ..
i wan in white or even black pls ...
i must be dreaming //





hair product for grooming ...
an essential item for HAIR to create those wild spiky look ....








an sport item for c oly ...rare use ///
strictly perhiasan






favourite item . ...
a scent to flirt , a scent to attract ...

i damm like the smelll....
silver shadow
< atitude >\
david off

i was here ...
but just simply dont know wat to tell ..
where to start , how n y ....
i just dont know ...


back soon if anything ...

just woke after a 12 hours sleep after consuming a pair of panadol ...

u name it , i got it....fever , flu , sore throat and extremely blur ...
anyway i feel better temporarily ...

TIME TO REDO AND WORK HARD FOR OUR MOYC,
JIAYOU ALL !!

i guess its cold here ....raining , breezing every single thing away ...
in this cold weather it would be very good n warm if someone pop out ...
last night i was dreaming of u ...
yup ..tats it ..i know it ...
.its not bullshiting ...
haha ....I KNOW ...




listening this song this lately
m2m pretty boy . ..
i wonder if i m someone's pretty boy ???
SOMEONE'S ???



p/s ...thanks swee ling for YOUR ADVICE ....
u r the man ....:)

weird change

because of some words or phrases , it tend to lead me to think more ...more than enough ....for some simple words i am doubting ...do they really mean it ????
y ???among them are <

1) i m touched
2) miss u
3) actually u r not bad person , kinda not bad guy ...



because i tend to care very much wat ppl think of me and their opinion to me this lately ,
a lot of ppl had told i some how am changing ....i am different from last sem ...
eventually i know it , but i cant state the reason ,cant describe the reason behind this change,,,
i am also starting to lose in understanding myself and wat i wan ...
maybe its because of certain things tat happen tat makes me wan change , ...


i wan to win back my marks which has been lower , wan get a from every ppl view ....
wan to prove myself am worthy , someone hu deserved to be given a chance ...no matter in term


i just dont trust myseld ,
low in confident
even i know in some factors i maybe good , i just need reassured from ppl or praising from time to time to keep me going on this long road

i thought but actually it wasnt so

i thought i knew but actually i dont ....

i thought i was getting near into making our distance nearer , but actually my
ignorance was indeed only making our distance further ...

i thought i was something to u , but actually i dont even meant a single thing....

i thought a blind's man stick being able to help u r needed but actually i am no
difference than a torchlight in the day light ...< useless n no point >

i thought i was anyhow make u feel better but actually i was creating more headache
problem to u ....

I thought i was seen for wat i am in your eye but actually to u i maybe just another
normal passerby in your life with no difference at all ....

i thought i am remember for wat i am but actually i wont be thought of as i am not anyone wit particular reason for u to be remember for ....

i thought u ll cry for me if anything happen but actually u would just gladly take it
as something normal and just care for a friend ....

i thought i can have u if i try hard enough by waiting in patiently hoping a slight chance but actually i am just losing as i dont have the luck , ability and whatever it to deserve u ....

i thought i was making reality by creating magic in every happiness u bring but actually i was just oly dreaming when i am thinking too much ....



p/s /.....i m writing for fun , no any particular moody or emo nor anything ...
i m just exploring my inner me hu wan to express my piece of thinking or my say ....

sleepless again ..and AGAIN

this insomnia thing is just hitting me more n more often wit more serious come back each time ..
couldnt say i dont know wat i was thinking ..
maybe its because i know wat < me , myself , i > was thinking tat make myself feel i m so useless ....
no use crying over the split milk but i am still eventually blaming myself



alex ...u r so no use ....



y cant i
just be normal ppl have normal routine , normal life , normal ending ...
how come its was me the oly one feeling tis word is just so unfair ...
others are able to get ...
i m not so greedy actually ...


can i just disappear away >>>.

its raining here ...i m down with sore throat again ....little sneezing ad ....
h1n1 ???
i hope so ..
hehe ....
so fast its sem 3 ....
officialy a big senior now ..
wat to do ???
blur condition ....
tired today ...
tats all ...
bye ...

dont wan regret

yesterday has receive a call from yng yng ....
she told me a news while crying ...someone we knew pass away ....
its sam ....car accident ..
may u rest in peace ....



upon hearing it ...i was shocked till now ...one whole day le ...still shocked ...
tat day i been keep on thinking
how come life so fragile te le ????tat day before come back from uum still c him look fine te ...
all of us was eventually planning to gather around after sem3 reopen ...
now ..


i whole day dont wat to do ...i call the rest of the friend < springfest 09 exchibition bureau > to let them ....call them d , dont know how to tell them ...
guess of all us was very shocked ...




today i had my day off ...just dont feel like talking or going out ..
haih ....
this thing just keep on popping in mind ...pls forgive me
if it can happen to sam , it can just happen to all of us ...
if we were to leave tomorrow ,
will we regret ???
I WILL ...I GOT A LOT THINGS WAN TELL ...GOT A LOT THINGS I WAN DO ...
MOST IMPORTANTLY ...

GOT WAT THING WAN TO DO MUZ DO ....DONT DELAY D ..
I WILL
APPRECIATE MORE ....


dont worry , i be ll fine ...
take care all ...
dont too sad le ....< yng yng >

come d lo ...as i guess ...

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 100 Truths about you. At the end, choose 5 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:

1. Last beverage: Plain water.
2. Last phone call: Father.

3. Last text message: Promotion from DiGi.

4. Last song you listened to: wo ting jian you ren jiao ni bao bei ..lin jun hui
5. Last time you cried: cant remember ad ....last month i guess ...a few tears count ??

HAVE YOU EVER:

6. Dated someone twice: wat u mean by twice ??? most probably no

7. Been cheated on: how i know o ??

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No

9. Lost someone special: consider so ...not as in die la but ...

10. Been depressed: Yes

11. Been drunk and threw up: yup...

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:

12. light green

13. white

14. Black

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)

15. Made a new friend: a few i think ?

16. Fallen out of love: Not sure.

17. Laughed until you cried: dont think so. =D

18.Met someone who changed you: yeap ..

19. Found out who your true friends were: Yeah

20. Found out someone was talking about you: always ??/

21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: Not yet ..

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Mostly.

23. How many kids do you want to have: 3 or more i think ...depend of wife also ..hehe

24. Do you have any pets: tak ada

25. Do you want to change your name: sometimes lo ,macam a bit too girlish le ...

26. What did you do for your last birthday: at uum , been surprised by a group of friend lo ...very happy too

27. What time did you wake up today: 8 something, i dont feel like getting up by the way ..feel tired ...

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: my bed , dreaming d i guess

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: my birthday this year ...hope for something

30. Last time you saw your Mother: now . she is beside me lighting the joss stick

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: perhaps to a better look n a singing voice ???
32. What are you listening to right now:my earphone .. dbsk< miss u >

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: macam ada ...tak ingat sangat

34. What's getting on your nerves right now: Waiting for someone in msn to reply ,=.=

35. Most visited webpage: blogger, facebook.

36.Whats your real name: alex lian li peng

37. Nicknames: alex ,

38. Relationship Status: Single and still hunting ???haha..

39. Zodiac sign: Virgo

40. Male or female?: Male.

41. Elementary?: Tadika Batu Belah.

42. Middle School?: S.K (1) Jalan Meru

43. High school/college?: High School Klang.

44. Hair colour: Black

45. Long or short: short

46. Height: 160 something . Not sure.

47. Do you have a crush on someone?: dont know ???wat is even crush ???i doubt i know wat does it mean ??

48. What do you like about yourself?: not sure ...

49. Piercings: 0

50. Tattoos: None

51. Righty or lefty: Righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: Nope

53. First piercing: i want to have one on my ear ...left ear ...but think oly ..

54. First best friend: forgetten lu ...kaka

55. First sport you joined: badminton is it /??

56. First vacation: forgetten as well

57. First Boss : Dont know hu is him te wor ,,.tat time first job was saturday night waiter at restaurant

58. First pair of trainers: Dunno.

NOW:

59. Eating: nothing to eat ...

60. Drinking: soup ..mum cooked soup ..

61. I'm about to: yawn ..for some reason i feel tired ...
62. Listening to: Jetaudio.. wo ting jian you ren jiao ni bao bei ..lin jun hui

63. Waiting on: someone to reply in msn ..

YOUR FUTURE :

64. Want kids?: Sure! 3 or more of them.

65. Get Married?: sure, tat if also if i manage to find a gf first ..hehe ...

66. Career?: dunno ...dont wan plan to far ahead ...as it ll be la ...

WHICH IS BETTER :

67. Lips or eyes: both

68. Hugs or kisses: both

69. Shorter or taller: Shorter

70. Older or Younger: Younger

71. Romantic or spontaneous: both

72. Nice stomach or nice arms: Nice arms

73. Sensitive or loud: both

74. Hook-up or relationship: Relationship

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: depends on the people lo ...

HAVE YOU EVER :

76. Kissed a stranger: No

77. Drank hard liquor: I guess so…

78. Lost glasses/contacts: ya ...my first glasses ...

79. Sex on first date: not yet ???haha

80. Broken someone's heart: erm ....dont know ...a few ??

82. Been arrested: by teacher? Yes!

83. Turned someone down: Yeap.

84. Cried when someone died: Yes, my grandma ...long time ago ..

85. Fallen for a friend?: as if ???wat kind of friend ??guys ???haha

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86. Yourself: half half ///

87. Miracles: wat is miracle o ???haih ????someone out there hu know something ??haha ...

88. Love at first sight: i think i CANT GUA ???

89. Heaven: never imagined it ..

90. Santa Claus: IN TV OLY ??

91. Kiss on the first date: no ...slowly lo i guess ...

92. Angels: It’s only a fairy tale they believe…< copy from ben , this is wat i think also .>

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: no

95. Did you sing today?: ya ...

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: of course ...but there is also some one whom i never will cheat upon ...no matter wat ...haha ...

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go?: relived my life again ...although it is not exactly happy all the time ...wan to change something ,,,to c thing more clearly ..

98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: i got answer ...dont wan share ...haha ..i m greedy ...i wan 3 days ,...

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: at the moment ???yeah ???hu is there for me ???

100. Posting this as 100 truths?: Yes,i am trying


5 ppl i tagged ...

swee ling
chia kie
pauline
cindy
fei shan

saya ada semacam feel ...i ll kena d ...

ben ....
thanks la anyway ...at least u ll think of me ....haha
banyak gay hor ???
lol