i saw this song over swee ling blog ...addicted to it ....nice song ...share wit the rest here ...
applause here ...

finally i am sleeping ...
went to bad before 12 last night .
but keep on awake ....roughly dozens of time last night ....
walao ....like this go on cannot le ....
anyone ???anyways ????

not sleeping ...

right now is 9.43 am ...i awake d ...despite last night just reach home after partying till we 4 am +++\
upon reaching home i couldnt even open my door ...the key just cant get in the hole ..
hands was shacking .....
WAS THAT TERRIBLE ????
at last also manage to unlocked...


The reason for the celebration was vinny celebration of 21st birthday ...
alcohol level was high enough till i can sometime dont walk straight enough
...glasses of red wine was like tasteless ribena ...
3 full glasses in 5 minutes ...glup glup ....glup ..
follow on ...some more dont know drink how many glasses d ...
a sign of unhappiness ???

how come i am drinking so smooth te ?
the feel is there ....red wine was quite in the good quality but i drank it like a cheapskate beer ,,,,






this 2 days i wasnt able to sleep ...2 freaking days ad ,,,barely sleep oly 9 hours ....
using alcohol to make me sleep was no longer in use ...
getting resistant to it ad ...
oh yeah ...my body is freaking pain and tired ..i cant sleep despite how tired i am ....

kepada orang yang mengetahui ceritanya ....
history repeating ....wounds are deeper ....invulnerable ....the cause n effect are getting to me ,...i just couldnt take it ...cant release also ...all of it are jamming into my soul ...
in a state of something i never felt before .....
drop to the deepest hole in the world ....
cant get up back ...
dont c the sunlight anymore ....
will time cure or any helping hand ll come back ???


btw ,...JG also wake up d ....he also cant sleep ...hahaha

applause /??

cun betul ...wat the h ***....
wat i dream really eventually come true ,..
m**** ,,,,wt*...
tomorrow go buy sport toto , 4d , 3d ...
number is 4567 ...
dont so greedy ....

indeed today i am not very myself ...
working political ,,,,i am d*** f******
annoyed ....

fall in the darkest pit ....ca******
sorry r ...today specially got many *****
really boh song till max d ..
bursting ...
this holiday really SYOK ????

one more week past d ....
saw a yns couple ,,,,,
dont know wat to say le ...
dont know is jealous or wat ..



pendek kata .....
saw them makes me terimagine lots of thing ...

sot zor ?/?/

saturday night le ...
i stuck here r,...haih ...
moods macam tak kelihatan ...

last night i had a weird dream le ,,,
my dreams are getting weirder as the day past ..
so teruk le ...
arent dreams are suppose to be imaginary happiness ....
how come recently macam oly nightmares ???
tones of them ...
a sign ???

today when was working ..heard some song....song tat makes me think of some one
jj lin ( small dimple )...
jay chow ( a song time )...
,,
thinking of u r ...someone's

wat to write le ...
nothing much happen ...


anyway ..i ll be working soon ...tomorrow morning to be exact ...
station one ...again
never mind la actually ...
mean nothing to me ...
put a little time out to gain back somethings ????
job is easy i guess
to past some time
or
whatever la ...
good night everyone + someone's



p/s ...jason ..thanks for the treat ya ???only one glass enought la ...haha
benn .....u scare me out ...spooky ..
jg .....dont so moody ...

nice session of tea at the bamboo ...
signing off lo ...night ..

a creation

just a random post ...
it came out of no where ...
no special meaning ...
heading to no where ...




when u were not around ...
i misses u ....
things were not the same as before ...
your voice , your smell or even the atmosphere is totally so different
its just undescribeable ...
i m seeing things tat arent there ...
hearing things tat doesnt exist
wat my eye saw is only a an reflection of u in my heart ,,,,
didnt contact wit u doesnt mean i totally forgetten about u ..
i just cant find any good excuse in sms or calling u anymore ..

just wanted to heard your voice...
let u know everything ...
let memories of simple stuff be back ...


i miss u ...
very much ...
to u ,...
i sincerely ...
do ...

the journey 7/5/09

after having my tid exam it was balik kampung time ...hehe...
was suppose to leave uum at 2 pm ...end up ...leave at 3.13....
the vios is cramp wit bags and stuff ...
not forgeting there are four ppl in it ..me , neejian , emily n yee von ...




well ...never mind then ..journey was ll be taking long time so we stop at quite a number of petrol station ....
by the overwhelming joy of finish exam ...we wan eat delicious food ....
place of suggestion >>
pinang or ipoh ...
end up ...dont stop la ...go back home first ...


at somewhere near ipoh we decided to eat something first ,,,
therefore we stop at at rnr area....i eaten a tasteless plate of malay food ...expensive like hell some more ,,

after eaten ....someone took over the wheel ...emilyn ...
drive quite fast ....
i suddenly have an opinion of amazed by her ....she drive quite ok ...calm hands ...
ommm...u should c the meter ....0 to 130+++..
tim r her ...


half way not long ..stop again ....me this time ...feel not well ...wan to vomit d....
was it due to the food or emilyn skill of driving >??
no one know ...i guess ...
they persuaded me to sleep a while ...maybe ll feel better ....


it was 7 pm ad ...when we stopped AGAIN ...the stop we make was another r n r area ,,,this time i am awake ....
i get to drive ad ...hahah ....feel very enjoy ad meter speeding until 140++
haha ...syok syok

pop up the but and reach for my sweater ....feel great behind the wheels .....the sickness seems gone for a while ...eveyone was asleep i guess ...

until ...suddenly reach tanjung malim ...when i decided to slow down as everyone was sleeping ...SOME NOISE COMING FROM BEHIND ..CAR WAS SHACKING ...
something wrong wit car ....

Decided to pull over n check at a nearby petrol station ...tayar puncture ...oh no ...althought it was in the middle of the high way ,,,but it was lucky ,,,,we manage to stop and try to change it ,...
guess wat ,,,none of us know how to change ...i know a bit but i dare not ...

it was this two bangladeshi pump attendant come n offer us help ..trying to help us change ..it seems the skru was looked very hard ,,,,neither both of them can open it after a period of trying ..

something wrong ad ...time to call for help

....
another good ppl come help ...they wit a kind face have a look ...they explain ...
'ya ,,,the 2 gong gong te ppl did the wrong thing ad la ,...instead of loosen they tighten it some more ..even the skru patah ad ....'
cant open ad ...u got to find better tools from lorry drive to help open ad....


find help lo ...
thanks malaysian for having such nice ppl
..
lastly ...everything settle ...tayar changed ,...3 nuts oly ...cannot drive so fast ...



reach home at 0001....
safe n sound reach ...
tired ....
haih ...wat a sui day ....

something i wan to let u know ...when ....i was sick and the car tayar puncture ...i was thinking of u ...thinking of doesnt ll solve my problem ...
but i really think of u ....wan to tell u everything ...

i m back

12.58 am .i m back ..
lots of story happen today on the journey
...update later ..

the full stop !!

particularly ....lots of ppl have already go home le ...one by one ....

to ..see keat
yng yng
zoey

thank for your before left sms ...thanks for asking me to jia you and mostly ...TELL ME U ALL MISS ME DURING THIS 2 MONTH ...
thank u thank u


how come i feel very touch te ???/
i ter'bang' my head ????


add on to tat
when someone told me 'i left d '.....
those particular time...
i struck there as my soul has already my body .....


2 more day is tid exam .....no preparation n no mood to face it ...
how come ??i also wonder ...
all i had now is oly sleepless night .....
sleep by dawn i think ...around 4 to 6 ...then wake up normally at noon ....
the whole afternoon would just playing dota in order not think about anything ....
after tat ll keep lying there ....on bed ....starring the ceiling ....


....
god help me < jordan chan >