Saturday, May 23, 2009

not sleeping ...

right now is 9.43 am ...i awake d ...despite last night just reach home after partying till we 4 am +++\
upon reaching home i couldnt even open my door ...the key just cant get in the hole ..
hands was shacking .....
WAS THAT TERRIBLE ????
at last also manage to unlocked...


The reason for the celebration was vinny celebration of 21st birthday ...
alcohol level was high enough till i can sometime dont walk straight enough
...glasses of red wine was like tasteless ribena ...
3 full glasses in 5 minutes ...glup glup ....glup ..
follow on ...some more dont know drink how many glasses d ...
a sign of unhappiness ???

how come i am drinking so smooth te ?
the feel is there ....red wine was quite in the good quality but i drank it like a cheapskate beer ,,,,






this 2 days i wasnt able to sleep ...2 freaking days ad ,,,barely sleep oly 9 hours ....
using alcohol to make me sleep was no longer in use ...
getting resistant to it ad ...
oh yeah ...my body is freaking pain and tired ..i cant sleep despite how tired i am ....

kepada orang yang mengetahui ceritanya ....
history repeating ....wounds are deeper ....invulnerable ....the cause n effect are getting to me ,...i just couldnt take it ...cant release also ...all of it are jamming into my soul ...
in a state of something i never felt before .....
drop to the deepest hole in the world ....
cant get up back ...
dont c the sunlight anymore ....
will time cure or any helping hand ll come back ???


btw ,...JG also wake up d ....he also cant sleep ...hahaha

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